Amnesia

[dbeck128]

Hello everyone I would like to start off the post with saying that this could be a trigger for some.

I have had some troubles always with my anxiety ever since I can remember I think it started around 13 so it has been 10 years now..

Most recently for the last couple of years I have gotten to where I feel like I am forgetting where I am, am on the brink of for getting everyone, and will not remember who I am anymore.

I do not know if this is normal or not and I just wanted to come on here and see if anyone else experiences the same thing, or if there is a proper name for the fear and phobia I am feeling .... because it really feels like I am losing it all when I go into this mode, ......

it feels like I really do not know where I am and that I am spacing out and for getting everything. Including myself. And everyone else. What does this sound like? And is it all in my head?

[Sober2007]

I've not had the same exact experience, but I've certainly felt disconnected from self and others at times. I'm not a doctor, but you might look up depersonalization/derealization to see if that seems to describe what you are experiencing. I believe I've experienced this but not chronically. Evidently a lot of people experience it at some point in their life, and it isn't considered a disorder until it is persistent. There is also something called dissociative amnesia, which is usually associated with some kind of trauma.

[Hidden]

I know when my anxiety was at an all time high, I forgot a lot of things, I would end up driving to places that I didn’t intend to go to. I slipped hard at work, I lost touch with a lot of people.

I found it an adventure just to iron my clothes and get to work- and not even considering what I needed to do.

[Hidden]

It’s depersonalization

[jkl5500]

I'm not a doctor, but my guess is that your anxiety is playing tricks on your strained nervous system. This article should be of help:

psychcentral.com/lib/9-ways...

[dbeck128]

Its horrible guys. My mind is exhausted and I feel like I'm forgetting simple tasks and just "thinking" is hard. I hope this gets better.

[Hidden]

I can relate so much to this... have you been on any medications over the years? For me, when this happened it was due to being over medicated. It took a few years to train my brain to function normally. I would just sit and stare at something for long periods of time knowing I was stuck there. Or forget where or what I was doing. If I’ve paid bills or followed thru with my word or something. It got bad. And it was extremely scary for me. I’m 31 now and have been dealing w this since I was about 11.

I read self help article after article on the topic. I am no doctor either and everyone is different but I found that one of the easiest cheapest things that turned my life and ability to think clear and proper day to day was drinking lots and lots of water!! I know many people laugh at that and think that won’t work but water has this ability to truly help and heal us.

Keeping a small to do list for the day. So when you complete them or maybe only one (if it’s a rough day) then the sense of accomplishment will eventually sink in more and more. When we feel good we perform well.

Look into bullet journaling. It’s been known to help break down parts of our brain so that we can process what is jumbled up there.

💕🌹Be kind to yourself too. Trauma does a number on us.

Warm wishes!

[dbeck128 in reply to Hidden]

Did it get better for you? I came home last night and felt like I didn't know where I was and was just forgetting everyone and everything I ever knew.

[Hidden in reply to dbeck128]

Hey chica - I noticed Zoloft made this worse for me to the point where I was mega confused. Were you having this before meds? It could be the startup of a new one.. or just the meds exasperating an anxiety symptom. But I promise it’s depersonalization.

[Hidden]

It got so much better for me. I had to start planning my next day. Lay clothes out, write out my to do list. My journal and to do lists saved me. If I forgot I would refer back. My rule was once I did it or thought it I would record it. I grew to learn that if I didn’t record it it I would forget and not do it.