Feeling hopeless

[Amiller325]

Hi everyone. I'm new here. I just signed up today. I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to say. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I've tried multiple antidepressants and anxiety medicine in the past but nothing has helped and some even made it worse. I've been to multiple doctors and feel like no one has really helped. I'm at the point now where I don't know what else to do.

[Hidden]

hi Amiller325

I'm new here

I'm hoping to get information,advice,support

you got to remember,

you are a person 😁

you have a life,we got to fight for it

you are not hopeless,we are not hopeless 😏

I know its crapy,but that's what we got.

take care 😊

[Amiller325 in reply to Hidden]

Hi Thinlizzy54,

I'm hoping for advice and support also. I feel hopeless most of the time but I'm not giving up. I have my children who I know need me and they are the very reason I'm not giving up. I just wish this hopeless feeling would go away. I've dealt with this for so many years now that it feels like it's never going to get better.

[Hidden in reply to Amiller325]

are you kids grown up,are they at home.

I wish I had a magic wand to wave and wipe out bad times 😒

you take care 😁

[Amiller325 in reply to Hidden]

My children are still young enough to be home with me. I wish I could wipe out all the bad times also. I was sitting here thinking the other day, trying to remember the last time I felt truly happy and it's been so long I can't remember.

[Hidden in reply to Amiller325]

I'm sure one of the kids have made you smile.

live with that moment,they will be many more.

I try cut out rubbish and build on good moments.

(we are on two posts ,ha )

[Amiller325 in reply to Hidden]

My kids definitely do make me smile. I really don't mean to sound so whiny. I'm thankful for the things I have and I know that a lot of people have it a lot worse than I do. I try to remember that everyday but it really doesn't help with my depression. In a way it just makes me feel worse and like I'm a bad person.

[Hidden in reply to Amiller325]

I often think I'm a horrible person.

it seems some days I go out of my way to people,people who I love and hate to think I upset them but I'm sorry to say I do.

with a lot of soul-searching I get back to me.if only for a short while.

we're not bad,or horrible.

we are not well shall I say

[Hidden in reply to Amiller325]

well I don't like it,but I understand ♥

when it says like at bottom of page,

mainly just to. say.i know what you mean,

[Amiller325 in reply to Hidden]

I definitely don't like it either. I agree with you, I think the like button is more like saying I know what you mean or I understand. Instead of being a like button, I think it should be an "I understand" button. Lol But in all seriousness, I do understand what you mean. I feel like I let my family down and disappoint them a lot. The worst part is I don't even mean to. I try so hard not to upset or disappoint anyone.

[Hidden in reply to Amiller325]

I know 😞

it's so silly.i can see myself being horrible,nasty ,not nice and it feels like someone else is doing it.

the like button is a "understand" or "agree" button.

what we like 😁

[memmay_2017 in reply to Hidden]

Hello depressed people! You are my family! Here is what you do today, "deep breathing!" Try it!

❤️

[Amayla]

I just signed up too! I feel like my story is the same...my physical symptoms give me anxiety and then I get depressed if I felt good I would not be depressed

[Bubbles0]

Hi Amiller, I am sorry to hear this. Depression is a very difficult illness. Do you have a support network of friends and family you can talk to? This will help a little. Also try to do some exercise. I spend a lot of my life living in a positive spiritual community, this helps a lot. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help.

[Amiller325 in reply to Bubbles0]

Thank you for your response. I actually don't have anyone I can talk to. My family doesn't understand although they do try and I don't have any close friends. That's part of the reason I signed up on this site. I'm hoping that talking to other people that are dealing with the same issues might help me some.

[Bubbles0 in reply to Amiller325]

You are welcome to message me or talk to me. I am happy to help. 347-732-1086

[Amiller325 in reply to Bubbles0]

Thank you again. I really appreciate that.

[Amayla in reply to Bubbles0]

Everyone thinks it's anxiety but me my symptoms get worse at times and then I function OK for a few weeks I am never Great...I feel like I have an auto immune disease but no one has found it do you think anxiety can do this

[Amiller325 in reply to Amayla]

Anxiety can break down your immune system over time as can depression. The longer it goes on, the weaker you can get. An auto immune disease can usually be detected with blood work. The tricky thing about anxiety and depression is that you can go for periods of time and feel ok and then it can come back and hit you when you least expect it.

[Bubbles0 in reply to Amayla]

What are you symptoms? Anxiety can do a lot things. Such as chest pain, headache, feeling weak etc.

[Amayla in reply to Bubbles0]

I just wake up short of breath

Cant believe this is anxiety...

[Bubbles0 in reply to Amayla]

Do you see a doctor? You need to have a professional look at this!

[Amayla in reply to Bubbles0]

I have been to so many drs

No real answers

I wish there were good docs

I am in south florida

[Bubbles0 in reply to Amayla]

That's too bad. If you keep getting different symptoms, it's very hard to talk out of them. It's a chemical thing. I don't know what to suggest. Sorry! If I think of anything, will let you know. In the meantime, stay on the forum and get emotional support!

[Bubbles0 in reply to Amayla]

I know a good doctor who helped me in New York. Do you want his number? I dont know if he sees people on the phone long distance. Or maybe you fly to New York to meet him. I saw 4 doctors before settling on him. He gave me the right medication

[Amayla in reply to Bubbles0]

What kind of doctor

[Bubbles0 in reply to Amayla]

Psychiatrist. He is good at finding the right medication mix, at least it worked well for me.

[Amayla in reply to Amayla]

Thank you for answering my posts not sure if this is all anxiety I will be trying a new doctor in Florida May 16 I guess I have to keep trying ...

The breathing is my worst symptom

[Amiller325 in reply to Amayla]

I hope the doctor you're going to see can help you. Have you had blood work and a chest x-ray to rule out any other causes of your shortness of breath? Breathing problems is the main symptom of anxiety but if you don't feel that it is anxiety you definitely need to find a doctor that can tell you what it is. When you wake up with trouble breathing do you have any other symptoms with it or just the shortness of breath?

[Amayla in reply to Amiller325]

Its breathing and exhaustion

If i bend down to pick something up and then stand up I feel exhausted

If I had to diagnose myself I think I have chronic Lyme disease I was diagnosed many years ago but too many years late

[menagerie11]

Have you tried CBT? You can do a CBT course on-line through the Panic Centre. Or, have you seen a psychologist or psychotherapist? Medication is one part of the answer, but medication in combination with CBT is more effective. Personally, I also listen to calming music, (the music on You Tube for calming pets is also effective for calming people) view inspiring and reassuring messages and quotes, and sometimes just put one foot in front of the other and keep going even if it's slowly. Some days it's just harder than others. Keep trying and don't give up.

[Amiller325 in reply to menagerie11]

Thank you for the advice. I was seeing a psychiatrist for a few years and he loaded me up on meds that just made my depression worse. It's a long story but I stopped seeing him last year. I've been to a few other doctors but they just want to put me on the same medications that I was taking before. I feel better when I'm not on the meds. I'm still depressed and anxious all the time but it was a lot worse on the medications. I'm still trying to find a good doctor but so far I haven't had much luck finding one that actually cares. I haven't tried CBT. I'm actually not very familiar with it but I'm definitely going to look into it. I'm willing to try anything that might help. Thank you again.

[Amayla in reply to Amiller325]

What are your symptoms?

[Amiller325 in reply to Amayla]

I've been depressed on and off for over 10 years. I will just get this overwhelming feeling of sadness and cry for hours and sometimes days at a time. I've never been able to find a trigger or reason for it. I will be perfectly fine one day and the next I will feel so incredibly sad and overwhelmed. I'll feel completely hopeless and like there is nothing in the world that can make it better. Other days I will feel panicked and anxious and again I can't find a reason for it. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and social anxiety and depression. And a little over a year ago I was diagnosed with ptsd also. The ptsd isn't related to the anxiety and depression although I believe it makes it worse now.

[Amayla in reply to Amiller325]

Are you on medicines?

[Amiller325 in reply to Amayla]

I'm not taking any medications right now. I was on antidepressants for years and everything my doctor tried me on made my depression worse. I kept telling my doctor that I was feeling worse and worse but he just kept upping the dosages. Last year my depression got so bad and things were so overwhelming for me that I attempted suicide. I'm not proud to admit this and it's not something I like to talk about. I spent a week in the hospital. The doctors there told me that the combination of medications my psychiatrist had me on actually increased my depression. I also found out that the psychiatrist I was seeing had a number of complaints against him. Needless to say I stopped seeing him and I actually feel better not being on the medications. I'm sure there are medicines that can and will help but I'm terrified of the same thing happening again.

[Amayla in reply to Amiller325]

The only drug that helped me was abilify! Took care of many symptoms but what I did not like it raised my sugar levels

Antidepressants never work for me either my worst symptom is I wake up with a breathing issue and it gives me such anxiety not sure why I have a breathing issue doctors tell me nothings wrong can't believe it could be anxiety every day?

[Amayla in reply to Amiller325]

What state are you in?

[Amiller325 in reply to Amayla]

I'm in South Carolina

[Amayla in reply to menagerie11]

Starting DBT soon for the second time...i believe this takes in CBT

My mind just gets gloomy for no reason...

[Amayla in reply to menagerie11]

Thank you for your reply my physical symptoms trigger my anxiety but no doctor has an explanation for my symptoms. I am wondering if I have chronic Lyme disease which I was diagnosed with when I was in my early 30s

[poodlelover81]

Sometimds it takes multiple doctors. For instance, it took me about 8 years to find a proper doctor who would give me the proper diagnosis/medicine.