A level update

[Kevin160]

Hey everyone, today was my first Advanced level british system exam ..

Ever since my anxiety started to become more intense and constant late last year ..everything became scary..these past few days were terrible, i tried to keep calm but heart palpitations were terrible, i know that exams are stressful for anyone but for me i had so much panic these few days, eventhough i had A levels last year too and i should have been used to it but the pressure of studying and fear of failure got to me

I was stressed to a point i thought i would get a stroke, i kept measuring my bp every 5 minutes

Deep breathing helped alot keeping my bp low even after countless hours of panic and stress...i could barely sleep, dreaming about missing or failing the exams ..

However i took it today i was very stressed..and was nauseous and panicky etc..

I did very well, which made me feeel soooo silly and dissapointed that i stressed that much , like if i actually died what would it worth , like i cant control it , i try to tell myself you will be ok, even if you mess up its fine life is not about grades , but my heart just keeps sinking and pakpitating like crazy, my breathing pattern were calm which was weird , and my bp was fine, i dont know if like i knew deep down i would be fine , if that works like subconciously..however im proud that i found times during the day were i got calm, and didnt do alot about it just accepted all whats happening , i survived, now i have a few more exams next week, I really feel unsure when i think about if im going to survive like the exam pressure and results ..which is soo scary

[kittenkisses91]

Congratulations on doing well on your exams and for keeping calm!

I find that I get really anxious in anticipation of something (like a job interview) but when the time comes I am fine and do well. Just remember for next week's test that you have already done this and survived it and you will survive those too!

[Kevin160 in reply to kittenkisses91]

Thank you so much for the support ❤️❤️

I actually relate alot to this, i almost worry about the anticipation , that there is something to work for , or to face , or to deal with ..not that its scary or hard or anything but its just there, for example exam results stress me out even if i do well, not because im worried i failed or didnt do well, but its the overthinking and anticipation of what would be the result, how long will i wait what would this make me feel, what would this cause, how would i react

So this week it was mostly, “oh the exam is coming up” “its closer” ..i know. Studied but i was still worried that there is something coming up so i cant relax , and the anticipation made me panic more and more because i felt like my future depends on how i do in this hour and a half of an exam and failing of not doing well would cause me to delay graduation, univeristy , or settle for a lower average or different university etc..