Hey everyone, today was my first Advanced level british system exam ..
Ever since my anxiety started to become more intense and constant late last year ..everything became scary..these past few days were terrible, i tried to keep calm but heart palpitations were terrible, i know that exams are stressful for anyone but for me i had so much panic these few days, eventhough i had A levels last year too and i should have been used to it but the pressure of studying and fear of failure got to me
I was stressed to a point i thought i would get a stroke, i kept measuring my bp every 5 minutes
Deep breathing helped alot keeping my bp low even after countless hours of panic and stress...i could barely sleep, dreaming about missing or failing the exams ..
However i took it today i was very stressed..and was nauseous and panicky etc..
I did very well, which made me feeel soooo silly and dissapointed that i stressed that much , like if i actually died what would it worth , like i cant control it , i try to tell myself you will be ok, even if you mess up its fine life is not about grades , but my heart just keeps sinking and pakpitating like crazy, my breathing pattern were calm which was weird , and my bp was fine, i dont know if like i knew deep down i would be fine , if that works like subconciously..however im proud that i found times during the day were i got calm, and didnt do alot about it just accepted all whats happening , i survived, now i have a few more exams next week, I really feel unsure when i think about if im going to survive like the exam pressure and results ..which is soo scary