Struggling

[Knockonice]

I was told by the doctor today that I should take medical leave from my job because the job I love is what is dragging me down. I am a teacher in an inner city school. When I return to the regular world outside, I feel alone like no one will get why I feel the way I do

[brokenlight]

I’m sorry you’re struggling Knockonice.

Sometimes we could all use a break.

Best of luck to you ✨

[Knockonice in reply to brokenlight]

Thank you!

[Hidden]

Thank you for being a teacher. Maybe you just need a break. I applaud teachers, especially these days. Inner city must be difficult at times.

Is there 1 or 2 teachers you can meet with once or twice a week, who might understand?

[Knockonice in reply to Hidden]

That is a good question and I said in my second post that the atmosphere of my current school is like Orwell's "1984."

[Hidden]

You are doing work that matters. Though it may seem like nobody could get why you feel the way you do, there are people passing by you everyday who feel alone and are struggling. However, what you are doing is probably a huge burden, and more than most could bare. What you really need is to talk with other teachers or get some counseling to unload some of those burdens so you can better cope. It's possible that many people in the world outside your work environment won't be able to relate to your experience or feelings, but it's also likely that some will get what you're feeling. Many of us feel alone in this world. Essentially we are alone, but it's through the connections we make with others that we establish that there is meaning. Your teaching is affecting so many people's lives. The connections you are making with those kids and the parents has a purpose so much grander than you can even see. I commend you for all the time and energy you have to put into your work. But you need an outlet to help yourself refuel. Try to find an activity in your off time to engage with people outside of work. Whether it's a community activity, church group, or the gym. Something other than checking homework so you can take your mind off of work and focus on you. You need relationships outside of school to help you. If you're an introvert, like me, this can be a challenge, but it's vital to your emotional health. I pray this helps. Though we are alone, we are surrounded by others, many wanting to connect. Even those you counsel, need counseling, which is why you must find a way to unload some of your burden. Caring for those kids is a huge burden. Even Jesus, the greatest teacher, would frequently take time to meditate, pray, and refuel away from the crowds of people.

[Knockonice in reply to Hidden]

I do exercise and started counseling again. I have two children, one of which is diagnosed with autism. It has been difficult to connect with other teachers because of time and Orwell's "1984" environment in my current school. I appreciate you taking the time to respond!

[Dbd4]

Hi there. I am

sorry you are struggling so much. I too, am a teacher and I am undergoing treatment for major depression at this time. I feel it had a lot yo do with my job. Teaching today is no longer like it used to be. Very stressful. Very difficult. Very disrespectful and defiant kids. No support. Very low pay. Its no wonder we are depressed. Im thinking of doing a career change after teaching for over 15 years. I think the leave is a good idea. Take care of you because you are the most important person. Be well

[Coop1313]

I am a teacher for the past 25 years. It’s not easy for sure and there are times I question why I chose this profession. It’s certainly not for the money? When I’m having a bad day, I pull out a list I made that shows some of the kids whom I have been able to help. I also keep thank you notes thru have written and anything else that just reminds me of why I do what I do. It usually takes only a few minutes going through my list and I’m ok. I hope this helps.

[Sunnidayz1]

You sound like a very selfless person. And that is beautiful. But us givers need a break! You sound like a wonderful teacher and Im sure you're doing great work, day in, and day out, but it must be exhausting. Take a break. Take a vacation or maybe a weekend getaway type of thing.

We need more committed teachers like you out there!!!! But honey, no one can function on empty!

Take care. Please!

XxSunni💛

[Hidden]

It’s all good. You will get through it