Still struggling

[Against_the_current]

This job thing is ruining me. Mentally and physically. My parents don't understand. Im about to cry and panic and have ibs and acid reflux and am fatigued and paniced at the same time and am experiencing some ocd behaviour. Im going crazy. I need help

[Starrlight]

I hear you my friend. (((((((((Hug))))))))

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

(((Hug)))

[Cleo1011]

Go get professional help now!

[Against_the_current in reply to Cleo1011]

For real I do need proffesional help but in my country i have no access. My therapists refuse to consult me outside session, my proffesor isn't responding, my psychiatrist said he can't find me a job and better family and the ER told me to take a valerian root (which is a weak food supply and is ridiculous when even real medication can't handle me)

[Cleo1011]

So, if your job sucks, makes you miserable, and does not provide health insurance for you, then your job is not worth it. can you consider quitting?

since your parents are unsupportive and make you miserable, would you consider moving to another country where you CAN get professional help?

google the term "brain-gut-axis" - i believe in it. its a theory that whatever trauma your brain is going thru, affects your digestive system. so b/c you're experiencing severe anxiety, that could explain the IBS and acid reflux and alot of physical pain.

your OCD behaviors is probably your brain's way of coping with your anxiety. trying to find control, routine, in something.

how upsetting that Bulgaria does not support mental health.

[Against_the_current in reply to Cleo1011]

Yeah. I refused the job, it got me sick. My dad will support me till my final exam which is really soon and i can't study for it even i know that's why he letted me refuse. I don't have funds to move out. Im barely making it in another city than my parents. I can't live with them. Dad has a wife and a baby and mom's alcoholic. I can't go back. And this pain is stuck in my guts. Litterary

[Cleo1011 in reply to Against_the_current]

any other family you can temporarily live with?

does Bulgaria have a "welfare system" like in the US? the government gives money to poor people. even health insurance.