Scared for mine.

[Sequinsforever]

It’s been long while since I’ve posted anything here. I’m almost 2 months postpartum. Believe me when I tell you postpartum depression is real. It’s so real. Doctors told me to talk to someone when I would start feeling low. My doctor explained to my boyfriend, while I was being discharged, that I may start to feel down. He said “ok” meaning he’ll be there for me. HE WAS NOT. He caused me to feel so down. He would bash me all day about not cooking or cleaning. He never understood it takes about 6 weeks to fully recover and heal.

I gave birth naturally meaning I felt it all! I had a second degree tear which means both my muscles and my vagina were torn horribly. Then on top of all of that I lost a lot of blood during labor so I’m extremely tired and hurting!!

He’s getting worse every single day. He hits me in front of our child. He choked me while I was holding our less than 2 months old BABY. I’m crying...the baby’s crying. It was HORRIBLE. I need to go. But where? Where will I go. I’m only thinking about one place I’d be better off, but I CANNOT LEAVE MY BABY HERE IN THIS CRUEL WORLD.

[Coralrose5]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this! Sending you love.

[Gettingbackupagain]

Get away my darling! Postpartum depression is one thing but ptsd in addition to from domestic violence abuse is way too much to bare! Please get help from someone local as soon as it is safe and get out of that relationship. Get a counselor who can help support you. Tell him you got a doctors appointment in the morning pack you and the baby a bag and kick it to a domestic abuse shelter. They will help you file a TRO on him to protect yourself and your child. Don’t believe that staying is going to help you or your child. Leaving is the only thing that will save you! You have to believe that you are all your baby needs right now to develop into a loving person. You have to let that need and unconditional love of your baby sustain and strengthen your resolve to survive at all cost. Love is what you fought to bring into this world wrap that love up and run to safety.

Because it takes a weak man to hit a woman with the same hand he lovingly cares for his mother with....

Prayers for your protection and safety

[Sequinsforever in reply to Gettingbackupagain]

Thank you so much for your help.

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I’m so sorry you are suffering in this way. I agree with what Gettingbackupagain says.Please do get away from this situation ..take your baby and reach out for help. You deserve to live life not to survive life ..

I’m sending you vibes for strength to get out of this situation safely and quickly with your baby.

Xxx🌹

[hypercat54]

Oh this is awful and I agree with the others. This man is a monster for treating you like this! I can't help with practical advice as I am in the UK but you need help urgently. This is a crisis situation so please get help. If nothing else call the police. Sending you hugs xx