Reassurance?

[dbeck128]

Of course it’s night time, so my anxiety is full force.

I would like to know if anyone has this similar phobia?

I’m scared that one day, I’m going to go crazy. Like the people you see in insane asylums. The ones who don’t know what day, year, or week it is. The incomprehensible ones. Does this make sense?

Like one day, nothing will make sense to me.

Kind of like one suffers with dementia.

Sometimes it feels like my mind is on the verge of it. Or I’m half way there. It goes away, then comes back.

Does this happen to you? Is it normal? And how do you cope?

❤️ thankyou for the replies. You have all been so supportive and wonderful ❤️

[Hidden]

I feel that way because seven years ago that's just what happened. Was a working married mom, not too stressed and I woke up crazy and in a day the cops were called by my husband and in laws to come take me to the hospital since they couldn't get me in the car. I was in for two months.

I've been fine since but live on edge wondering if it will happen again or why it did at all.

Couldn't tell you how to prevent it except tell people around you if things don't seem right.

[jkl5500]

I sympathize with Melhall and her terrible experience. However, even though I'm not a doctor, I think most people who think they're "going crazy" are victims of anxiety gone out of control. Most likely, they've had panic attacks, and think (like I did once) that they must be losing their sanity to have experiences like that.

I hope you are under treatment for your illness. If not, see your doctor ASAP to get started. You don't have to live like this.

[Hidden in reply to jkl5500]

I agree. Mine was not a symptom of extreme anxiety and that wouldn't have caused psychosis. I didnt mean to imply that if I did. I just understand the fear of losing your mind.

[dbeck128 in reply to Hidden]

May I ask what triggered yours?

[Hidden in reply to dbeck128]

I don't know for sure. My daughter had something happen to her at four yrs old in October. It happened in August the next year. I don't know if psychosis triggered my actions or actions triggered psychosis. I started weeks before looking into some childhood trauma evidence like police reports and such, disowned my mother and told her off, and then fought verbally with my landlord and thought she was involved with a murder and even drove to the police station to report it at three am. Then I started repeating phrases in my head, days later my brain checked out. I think the actions were part of losing it but docs couldn't tell me why. I had depression from childhood but was raising a family and working full time, very normal life really. Thats why it's so scary. Could it happen again!? I've been completely normal since but now with anxiety and ptsd from that experience among other things like a car accident that almost killed me a few years later.

[Leighakay]

I fear this also! Like I will forget who I am or where I am but mostly it's when I am out of my comfort zone in public. I try to just deep breath and tell myself it'll be okay.

[Hidden]

This is more common than you might think (the fear of going crazy, not having a psychotic break). I found a book called the Panic Workbook that was really helpful because it described all of the irrational thoughts (not to discredit the person that posted who actually did have a psychotic break or episode) related to anxiety and panic and made me feel less alone or unique in those fears.