Medication

[Strongerthanmonsters]

I did everything I was suppose to do. I saw a psychiatrist. She prescribed me medication for anxiety and sleep. I got it filled, but all I do is stare at the bottles. I cannot seem to bring myself to take the pills not after last time. My last psychiatrist almost killed me because of the amount and kind of medication I was on. I know the medication I am prescribed is not a dangerous amount, but they fall under the category of antidepressants. I felt so sad and dark for such a long time on the pills, but since I got off I've been happier besides the anxiety and no sleeping. I am scared to take the pills because I do not want to go back to that dark time. I have been lost in depression for years and I do not want to go back. I'm scared that it never went away.. I just got better at ignoring it. Being in denial... Plus there is no guarantee the meds will work. They haven't for years.

[Sunnidayz1]

Do what makes you feel better. The doctors dont know what goes through your mind only you do. If you feel better not on the meds then dont take them. The medication is there for only those who need them.

[Strongerthanmonsters in reply to Sunnidayz1]

I know I need to take meds. I can barely function most days. I can't keep feeling this way.

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Strongerthanmonsters]

Oh ok. So if you need to take meds then do it. Are u afraid of the side effects? Im trying to understand.

[Strongerthanmonsters in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Yeah, I'm afraid of the side effects. The depression seemed to be a lot worse on medication and I know one of the side effects is suicidal thoughts and worsening depression while taking medication especially antidepressants. I don't want my depression to get to that point again.

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Strongerthanmonsters]

If the depression is a lot worse with the medication then I would not take the medication. I would either try a different med or research natural ways of coping w depression.

[hypercat54 in reply to Strongerthanmonsters]

No meds should make you feel worse once you have passed the 4-6 week mark and it they do they either need upping, lowering, or changing. You might need to try a few until you find one that suits you. Are you having any counselling?

However as Sunnidayz2 said if you don't want to try them again that is your choice. The only route left is the self help one and/or herbal remedies so google those and see what you can come up with. x