Secluding myself.

I feel so empty and alone. I’ve secluded myself to the point where I’m home alone everyday. My husband works and goes to school full time. I used to be enrolled in college and dropped out because I sink to such a low that I just don’t care about anything. I lose interest and I don’t want to do anything. I sit at home starring at the wall. Does anyone else feel so unattached to the world? I don’t want to talk to anyone that calls or texts. When my husband comes home I’m either irritable or have days I’m able to express how I feel to him. I feel like I’m not in control of my mind. Like I’m always “zoned out” or out of it. Some days I have the intention of leaving and running errands but I never manage to get out. I don’t know how to get out of this. I feel stuck.

[Hidden]

You were at College and you were setting out your future plans with positive expectations, you married, then crashed out and now you are stuck. You will most probably know the cause of the problem and now you look forward and you do not see the light at the end of the tunnel. So you need to talk out the way you feel, CBT May help you so I would advise you discuss your concerns with your GP. Make that Appointment. I would hope you do not need medications, they dumb down your thoughts and prevent making those decisions you may wish to take like looking for a job or going back to school.

Your Husband is following His Education, you have stopped dreaming and chasing your own future, you had your dreams, get them back

BOB

[ChicagoGirl1961 in reply to Hidden]

Meds do wonders for many people with symptoms such as EMVH. True.

[Kat63]

Do you think you could get out to see a therapist? I’m glad you have your husband - but I think you could benefit from talking to a trained professional. Isolating yourself might seem like the easiest thing to do. But it can really damage you. I know it’s hard to go out, but it’s better for your mind if you can.

[Hidden]

You sound like me and so many others on here and yes it sucks. My husband works, sleeps and drinks and I take care of our home and our doggy. I was hoping to get a job except with my husbands crazy work hours and sleep and drinking, I don't have time for a job. I need to make sure he gets to work, he makes real good money. I have sunk into a depression and anxiety now. I don't want to go do anything. I make plans and then just talk myself out of it. I totally get what you are saying. I know I slowly crept into this hole, I need to slowly get out of it. I need to try to and do stuff everyday to get out of this blah stage. It took me a minute to get like this, so it will take a minute to get out of it. Plus, we live in the 21st century, we can stay home and actually have a life and no one thinks its weird. Lots of people live like this. I can have friends online, shop online which I love lol I do go grocery shopping, I do not like the grocery people picking out my food, even though I pick it all out online, they always say they don't, didn't have whatever and I know they probably did and they just didn't want to look for it, I'm funny. Anyways, you are not alone. TV is my friend, a lot of peoples friend. I am trying, I am also trying to not be so hard on myself. Anxiety and depression suck and it is what it is. I am going to try be happy being alone and hopefully reading, posting, replying on here will help me and you a bit happier and less lonely

[Hidden]

Thank you all for replying. Unfortunately as sad as this may sound, I don’t think I’ve ever had a dream. My depression and anxiety started long before I got married or started college. I’m a survivor of sexual assault and I believe most of my issues stem from that. I have gone to therapy in the past and would love to go again, though it’s hard because of our financial situation. Obviously with my husband being the only working and being in college. It is so easy to get wrapped up in living your life at home butterpeanut! Society today makes it really easy to never leave or talk face to face.

[sklema]

I use to be there, where you are. Some days still am. It really just take a lot of pushing on our part to get one foot out the door. Staying in is easy, it takes real courage and motivation to get out the door. Just believe in yourself, make a plan even a small one such as one errand and make yourself stick to it. Start off small such as twice a week, then add to that.

[Hidden in reply to sklema]

Thank you. I’ll try that! I talked to my husband about finding some lower cost therapy and we’re looking into it