I'm so tired of this

[purl1]

I tried to go all day without taking any ativan and it just not happening. I am so tired of feeling like this. The anxiety is always there. I feel like I'm constantly on the edge. I'm afraid to do this afraid to do that. I need to be normal again and I don't know how to get there. I'm afraid I will get bad again and start having bad thoughts. I just don't know what to do anymore.

[Kat63]

Take the Ativan if you need it.

If you’re really concerned about needing it, maybe you could share your concerns with your doctor. If he or she is a good doctor, they’ll help you.

I can relate somewhat. I have anxiety symptoms and panic attacks, and I have an Rx for Ativan. But I try not to use it too often, because the doctor warned me that it’s addictive. I usually try the natural methods first (breathing, meditation, magnesium citrate) but if those don’t work, I go ahead and take the Ativan.

[purl1 in reply to Kat63]

I just don't want to become dependant on it. I don't take very much but I usually take it at some point every day. It's just so frustrating because I wasn't like this at all just 4 months ago. I hate being like this and I'm afraid I will never get better.

[Agora1 in reply to purl1]

purl1, was that when you started on Ativan? 4 months ago? xx

[purl1 in reply to Agora1]

yes it is

[Kat63 in reply to purl1]

I wish I could say something useful. I’m in a similar situation myself. I was so relieved when my doctor gave me an Rx for 30 Ativan tablets, with one refill. I was afraid she wouldn’t give me much.

It wasn’t so long ago that I was much more normal. I’ve been on SSRIs for about 30 years for depression. I think now that I’ve always had an anxiety disorder, but not enough attention was paid to it, because I could be high-functioning. But the past 8 weeks I’ve been anxious almost constantly and have had several panic attacks a week.

[purl1 in reply to Kat63]

it's ok. It's comforting to hear from other people and to know that they understand what I'm going through.

[Timmypliskin in reply to purl1]

Sorry to hear your having a hard time.

I just wanted to put in, you should worry less about becoming "dependant " ... the ultra hyped up stigma of certain medications causes more anxiety than the original issues.

Any medication is safe if used as directed.

Any medication that helps with any medical issue , technically , creates " dependence"

Mental health,

Blood pressure.

Diabetes

Heart issues all require daily medication... and it's ok...

[purl1 in reply to Timmypliskin]

guess I never looked at it like that. It makes sense. I just have read on here about people having a hard time stopping meds like ativan. I just want to try and prevent the withdrawals as much as possible. I usually cut up my pill and only take a quarter at a time. least amount as possible. some days that means half a pill. just trying to be careful with it.

[kateba]

Talk to your doctor. It sounds like you might need to be on medicine all the time like me. Ativan is not a good medicine to take long term. There are lots of medicines your doctor can try. I would also recommend talking to a psychologist. They are the professionals and can guide you in the right direction.

[purl1 in reply to kateba]

i do take other meds that help tremendously but i still feel on edge a lot.