In need of support

[ck1995]

Hi all I posted last night and I’m still feeling the same. Suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts at night particularly. Do other people struggle with this any suggestions? I already have a therapist and I’m on meds. I have a lot of stress in my life and PTSD on top of my anxiety and depression.

[Eowyn7]

Thanks for sharing with us. I'm very sorry to hear you are hurting this much. When I am in a bad place at night, I find the only thing that gets it over with quickly is having a good cry and then falling asleep. It does suck and is sad, but when you wake up you will probably feel a bit better. If i stay awake too long it just drags it out.

But you should do whatever helps you the most. If that is watching a favorite show or listening to a sad song, or eating some ice cream, or whatever. Having a routine for self care when you feel awful should distract you from some of those other thoughts, too.

I really hope you feel better soon ❤

[ck1995 in reply to Eowyn7]

Thank you. I wish I could cry I like block myself from crying and it just boils inside and I can’t cry until it all overflows. Definitely makes me tired when I do cry lol. Thank you ❤️

[Eowyn7 in reply to ck1995]

Sure anytime 😄

That is totally understandable, we all try to be strong and hold it together but sometimes we can't. That's ok. We gotta give ourselves a break.

[JAYnLA in reply to ck1995]

Ah! I’ve noticed that I can rarely cry when I’m alone - only when with other people. So odd - but I always ALWAYS feel better after I let it out.