How to move on?

[Kevin160]

This is a different type of question but somewhat similar to anxiety

Today i almost got hit my car , TWICE, dont get me weing im a good driver but i was very sick, i felt unconcious sort of like derealization all day, had a fever and had sore throat and an ear infection , i was surprised all that stress actually didnt really get to me , i just kept breathing deeply all day and telling myself you have been through this and you know deep down you are fine , anxiety is here to help you , its not a bad thing , you will be ok , experience it ...its not the problem here today.

Whenever i make a mistake or do something embarassing, i find myself thinking about it all the time, i nust feel so embarrased and dissapointed to a point where i feel scared, for example i statt thinkin what if i actually hit the car , what if i atcually forgot to do this and it went way wirse , i know its unhealthy to think that and everything happens for a reaosn and stuff , but i just dont know how to shift my thoughts when i go through something like , all day i have been thinking what if i hit my car , and not just that, i keep thinking how embarassing it was and its just in my head and it causes heart palpitations sometimes, i just want to feel strong mentally, even when i feel not Anxious and ok , thoughts are nit scary but they are there, and i know i shouldnt mind them but i like feel like im feliving some events i dont want to , and its scary , i find myself thinking of things happened years back or things it wasnt directly my fault

I guess what i want to know, is how do i face my mistakes and embarassment , i felt terrible all day and my day sucks , i went to the ER with a fever and diziness and nasuea im surprised i didnt throw up there i took a shot and felt better but i still felt kind of embarassed, i mean i almost hit the car on the curb and the garage but i just was speeding alot and i wouldnt have hurt anyone but like i was very sick and after i got the shot and felt better i felt energized and like how did do that this morning , so weird , but still reliving the moment sucks and i dont know how to move on..

However i was happpy to see that when i measured my bp in ghe ER it was 140/75 , las time it was 159/100 i felt more relaxed today somehow , sl it wasnt a bad day , i went out at night it was sooo tiring , eventhough i was sick and very tired the day inviolved me walking and running and catching taxis and walking in the cold , i felt my pulse pounding out of my chest, it sucks when youre sick and have the flu, my pulse was high all night , even when i was calm and sitting , i know its g tired and having the flu and stuff , so i tried to be calm , bas its was about 115 resting , but now its 85 or even in the 70s not sure but its much better , felt myself becoming more anxious about pulse but shut it diwn because i knew i will ibsess kver it and cinvince myself im sick ohysically and i have a heart defect or some dumb idea ...

[brokenlight]

I don’t have answers... but I’m sorry for your pain & suffering.