Suffering

[Musitera]

Hello, I’m 42 years old and I’ve suffered with panic disorder, ocd, and now clinical depression you whole life. I graduated with a masters degree and started my new career only to end up right smack in the middle of a nervous breakdown. I’m currently home trying to get the panic under control with medication, but I feel like my whole life is coming to an end. I have no joy any more. Nothing but pain. If it’s not panic it’s depression. Sometimes I just want to die. I don’t know if I’ll ever get back to myself again. I’m frightened and lonely.

[Coralrose5]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I can relate (read my previous posts for what I’ve been going through if you’d like). I also had a breakdown while

Going back to school recently. Are you doing therapy? I often feel alone too, except when I’m at work because I’m working. But when I go home that’s another story. I hope you can find some peace too.

[Sunnidayz1]

Im sorry to hear this.

I know you cant believe this right now but please know that what you are experiencing is not a death sentence. You are not damaged goods. You can, with work, get yourself on your feet again. It just takes time. Dont beat yourself up over it. Take it one day at a time.

You are not alone. We are here to support u and help.

XxSunni

[tppppppp]

I'm in it with you. Not all moments are bad. Remember that. You still have fleeting Moments of joy. I promise you. Have you tried cbt? In trying it now. In 6 sessions in and I look forward to each visit.

[Needtovent]

Sorry for the loneliness. Depression has a way of tricking us into thinking we can’t get our lives back. We can. You can! This a temporary state, but takes some work. You’ve got to retrain you’re overly sensitized nervous system. This is done by beginning to accept the scary feelings of anxiety and depression. Over time this acceptance will reset how our nerves respond to the stimuli (whatever your triggers may be) and result in a lessening and then, elimination of symptoms. I’m still working on this, but am a believer. I believe in you. Peace friend.

[Babyboomer1960]

I am going to through something similar. I am barely hanging on to a part time job right now. I am older than you (59), and have had a series of issues in my life that have finally resulted in what I also refer to as a nervous breakdown. I cycle between severe anxiety and depression. Fear of not getting your life back to normal makes everything seem even worse. It’s not like having a physical injury that has a predictable healing trajectory, like a broken bone. But it does seem like a mental injury. There is a guy on this forum, Jeff1943, whose posts have really helped me. He has been helped by the work of Dr. Claire Weekes. I also listen to the Claire Weekes talks on YouTube.

[weegmack]

Oh I’m just so sorry to read this. I can totally relate with how you’re feeling right now. The lonliness is so hard to bear. How you’re feeling right now is utterly isolating.

However, as everyone else says, this WILL pass. This is not forever. I’m so impressed that you’ve managed to complete your Masters and it won’t be for nothing.

Are you getting any help or taking any meds? Those things together, will allow you to start rebuilding yourself. ❤️