Depressive episodes trauma

[Mlovinska1]

Hi guys, I’ve been having depressive episodes come and go every couple weeks and right now I am trying to shake one off from this weekend but it’s traumatized me that I’m like scared of it happening again. It feels like something takes control of my thoughts and emotions and I can’t control myself and I’m scared of losing control again so I’m in this state of fear right now

[flapjack70]

That does sound awful. Do you take any medications? I'm no doctor, but I know if i literally felt "out of control," as you describe yourself having felt, I would want to talk to a doctor about that. Feeling sad and even depressed is bad enough. Are you having panic attacks? When you say depressive episodes, have you been suicidal? If you have been, the best thing to do, really, is to go into the Emergency Room, or call the Suicide Prevention Hotline.

[Mlovinska1 in reply to flapjack70]

Not suicidal just sad about how my life is going. I’m not on any medication cause I’ve been going to therapy and it’s been helping for the most part I’m usually really happy and relaxed but maybe like once a month I just get these episodes that come out of no where and take over my thoughts. I do suffer from anxiety too and get panic attacks so sometimes when I start thinking depressed that causes a panic attack too