POST 1: ABOUT ME

[TheWhiteRose]

Hello everyone! I hope all is well. I'm pretty new to the community and here's a little bit about my life:

I am from a big city, born to parents who are from the Caribbean. I have one brother, 2 step brothers, 2 step sisters and 1 nephew.

In 2005, I lost my mother to illness when I was 18 and still in high school. However, I managed to graduate from high school and moved to another state the following year to have a fresh start and be with my father and family members. A few years later after working from one dead-end job to the next, I managed to go to college, earn my AA degree in human services in 2013, then transferred to another college to earn a bachelors in social work in 2014. Sadly, I had to take a leave of absence which I eventually withdrew from the college due to financial problems in 2017.

As the years rolled by, 2016 had to be the worst year of my life. I felt rattled, although I couldn't put my finger on it. I couldn't concentrate on my studies, stuck working for little pay, and worrying about me and my future the most on top of other personal/family issues. I was very depressive that year, but was not formally diagnosed.

Looking into 2019, there are days where I'm up and then I'm down. However, there are most days where I'm down constantly recently, along with other things that are going on in my life. However, I have been encouraged by my cousin and other family members to get some help and I plan on doing so.

With that being said, I look forward to getting to know all of you!

Signed,

White Rose

[kenster1]

hi am sorry to hear of your loss and other situations that brought you here.apart from your financial issues at college do you think your brothers passing might have affected you more than you thought.your still young and well educated no one can ever take that from you.maybe just another career change and some support will help you.

[TheWhiteRose in reply to kenster1]

Hello Kenster1, thank you for your kind words. I think I do feel that my mother's passing has affected me more than I thought it would. In fact, one of my aunts called me a few weeks ago, and said the same thing. She as well as my cousin both told me that I need to see someone. I don't know if I'd say 32 is young, but yes, I can still continue my education, but maybe when my finances are in order again, then I'll decide another career.

[kenster1 in reply to TheWhiteRose]

no worries just glad to reach out.sorry I mentioned brother I meant mother.my friend lost his dad about 24 years ago.on the outset it seemed like he dealt with it well.he had steady jobs life was good.then a career change meant he had a job in a hospital.i think that triggered off his emotions and set him back.maybe with your career situation that has triggered your emotions as before you had college and uni as a distraction.hope you feel better soon.

[TheWhiteRose in reply to kenster1]

Thank you very much.

[Candle_lit]

I am here if you ever need to talk. Appreciate your story. I am going through up and down emotions to. At this point i am just being still in life. No pressure. Simply trying to take care of myself!

[TheWhiteRose in reply to Candle_lit]

Hello Candle_lit! Thank you very much. I'll be more than glad to talk to you.