Total Lack of Motivation

[SingingBirds]

I just feel so apathtic and tired of everything. Some days I can't or barely make it out of bed in the morning. I've been falling behind on my resposiblites in general and I don't know what to do. It keeps fading in and out.

[Kat63]

Do you find it easier to get motivated if other people expect you to be somewhere and do specific things? I’ve found I *need* to have other people expecting things from me. Otherwise, I’d never do anything.

[SingingBirds in reply to Kat63]

I've heard that works for other people, but it honestly shuts me down even more.

[Casewest20]

Apathy is one of my biggest, all-consuming problems as far as symptoms of depression go. Actually, the word “symptom” doesn’t even feel like a proper way to describe how bad I am with apathy. I feel like this horrible state of being has basically become a huge part of “who I am”, if that makes sense. I get out of bed but have no motivation to do anything other than lay on the sofa. The smallest chore honestly feels completely impossible. Showering seems like such an overwhelming task I just don’t do it for weeks at a time sometimes. It’s not that bad all the time, but it is most of the time. I’d rather do anything then get dressed and leave the house and interact with people. I isolate and ignore texts and calls from people. If I had to describe my feelings (I mean on a nearly continuous basis), I wouldn’t necessarily say sad is the proper description. It’s almost like I somehow have become emotionally numb, mentally too. I could just lay there doing absolutely nothing all day long and just feel nothing. I know that’s not helpful, just know that I can relate.

[Casewest20]

At the same time though, I’ve noticed way more anxiety and a sense of desperation and being upset lately... apathy feels better I guess, if I have to choose between that and panic. It’s like someone saying, “OK choose between having your finger chopped off or your toe”😂

[SingingBirds in reply to Casewest20]

I guess I'm just use to the general anxiety and high stress that it seems more bareable than apathy. I know where you are coming from though. Apathy just sucks because it's just a downward spiral and things get worse the longer you experience it. You can see that others are concerned about you, but you don't care. Even the simple task of taking care of yourself seem like it's too much effort. Staring of into nothingness you begin to wonder, 'What's the point?'

[Hidden]

I know this feeling well. I wish you the best.