for you lovely soul
well I’m sad stillbut so strong
wish you’d stayed
earth was too much I know be stronger and make it
you would say
but your ghost tells me
I won’t
well it’s wrong
So strong
Please don’t go
I had cried
truth told
not well today
think of heaven
while standing on hell
like your angel did
For you lovely soul
So strong
I reach high, I need to aim low, I fall hard, I fail, I try, it is so much; all the rawness of the world but all in all if I can just live without taking my own life, then in a way I have done it all!!! ❤️
There is a poem by Marie Howe that I have been wanting to post to you for a while now; I hope it will give you some comfort. I like to read it aloud from time to time. It is called "What the Living Do":
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❤️ love ❤️ love ❤️ loved it! So much of that poem is how my heart feels... I feel like it’s speaking from inside my soul. Brilliantly beautiful so edgy too.
I will print it out and read it often. It wants me to know it fully.
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Reading your poem, then thinking of the Howe poem, it just struck me how universal loss is -- how there will be others who will read your deeply personal poem and find that same connection.
Even in grief, it comforts me to know we are bound together in this way. Thank you for sharing your words and your heart here.
I’ve been looking after my brother for years before and after he had been gone. I’m still waiting for him like I’m his mom because I was his big sis and now I have to prove I can make it without making the same kind of mistake that he made which hurt me tremendously and I want an opology you don’t do that to your family I’m so upset. I still haven’t healed.
I can't imagine the enormity of your pain; the persistence of such hurt is heartrending and I know no words can halt it. When we are in pain, sometimes all we can do is take hold of one another, until this wave passes; and when it returns, take hold again. There are many hands here for you, Starrlight: just take hold.
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A.this is sad but beautiful at the same time. Thank u❤💕
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I am so very Starr. Hearts and love, so many hugs to you.
❤️ I’m so heartbroken today. I feel there’s nothing to look towards I cannot see it just hurt and tradegy
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In the midnight hour when your soul is exhausted, you can find solace here/This is a place of peace and calm, things we all hold dear.....Love abounds in this world of support, like a large, safe harbor/And we stand by our friends day and night, with feelings both strong and sure.....The strength to move forward abounds in this place, we call a community/Look around and you can feel it, it's an us, not just a me.....So when the strength of one is not enough, keep reaching out/We will always be here for you my friend, of that there is no doubt!
Love you Starr .. don’t forget that!
This is so heartbreakingly beautiful 😔 x such a deep poem x
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Hi Alan!!! I think 🤔 you 👨🏻 are so fun and kind and uplifting. Glad you’re around!!!
I am sorry for the loss of your brother & I think that your poem is beautiful 💙
Expressing your pain and grieving is healthy. Life is so painful and tragic but at the same time so beautiful and hopeful. Let the pain out so you can let love in. Warm hugs and a prayer 🙏
Thoughts 
Where has my soul gone?
writing and depression
My Brother