Where has my soul gone?

[vsskgm]

Do you ever experience moments that might last a few seconds or even a few days during which you feel like you can't make your face smile, you can't fix the tone of your voice, trying to stand up straight seems impossible, simply walking across the room is a painful chore, being sincere with another human being is impossible, you can't even find the right words to carry on a dismally shallow conversation, your face is so contorted in misery that it almost burns, and you just feel somehow like your soul has escaped your body? Or do I sound completely insane?

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your hurting so much, .... there are a lot of people here who can relate to pain and suffering with our stuff, and we too have to deal with it. Your not alone. If you read some others posts, and follow those of us who have learned coping skills to help pull out of that downward spiral you sometimes feel your in, it may help you.

[darrl123 in reply to fauxartist]

Hello Fauxartist, when I first started having a panic attack I was so afraid I felt like I was dying went to the emergency dept many times they could never find anything I thought I was going crazy sometimes I could barely write my name at this time I was working in the medical field. I feel so alone and is it so hard to explain to anyone about your feelings unless they have had one it was very debilitating this effect my every day living I think it took a year to diagnose my problem

[MJLove79]

It's as is you are in my mind. It is an awful feeling for sure. You are so not alone. As I type this I am desperately depressed and do not want to get up and get ready for work. I am starting to force myself to smile so I can get up and confront another day. Life is so tough for everyone but especially those of us that struggle with this. Hang in there, better days do come.

[Maxiomargie in reply to MJLove79]

Oh I know the feeling about how hard it is to get ready for work. I too suffer from depression, but my anxiety is the real issue. I have to get up extra early each day to get ready. It’s really hard some days. It’ s always worse in the morning too....that part is very common. I’ve done a lot of research on that and it seems part of the reason is that we build up cortisol while we sleep and that’s what makes us super anxious/ depressed when we wake up. Prayers & hugs going out to you. Peace always,

Maxine

[Maxiomargie]

No you’re not crazy. You have come to a very special support group. I went on a little vacation during the summer and the pictures of me are terrible....you can see how miserable I was at the time.. I am still struggling with A&D but I have also come a long way since then.

So hang in there. I know what it’s like to feel so empty. Like a shell of my former self. I feel like I’m slowly but surely coming back from that terrible time, but it takes a while. I still have days where it takes every cell in my body to get moving. I just keep trying to put one foot in front of the other. It’s very hard though, but don’t give up. Just keep sharing and read some of the comments. I pray for your speedy recovery and send my love to you. Remember that you are not alone! Oxox