I started permanently at a job I have been temporarily employed at for four years. I got a new supervisor, and now all the work I used to do I am now suddenly doing wrong. I am falling down a hole of depression and self harm, and don't know how to get out of it. Everything seems grim, and all of my lifelines are dead ends. I don't know what to do and I don't even want to try anymore....
New Job Stress: I started permanently... - Anxiety and Depre...
New Job Stress
Hello murtoh15. I feel exactly the way you do. I too am falling down a hole of depression, everything seems grim and I don’t even want to try anymore. I honesty don’t know what to do. I truly hope you are able to figure it out.
Document everything! Every little thing this person does, or says , document. Also, cover yourself, make sure you have written verification for a project or work, and make that person sign off on instructions before you do it. I had a supervisor try this BS on me, but I turned the tables and they ended up being booted out of the department because their little games came to light to management. Don't doubt yourself, don't despair, have faith in yourself and fight dire with fire. I wish you luck!
I am so sorry you are struggling. Do you think the depression is due to the job becoming permanent? Have you talked to your new supervisor what you are doing that is wrong? So you can learn what he expects? Have you gone through depression before? I have struggled with depression on and off for years. When it is interfering with everyday life it is important to seek professional help. Depression often happens due to our thoughts about ourselves that affects the serotonin in our brain. When that is off balanced we can't function well and causes the sadness. For me I needed to get on the right medication and find the right counseling to find the real underlying cause for my depression. I learned I am way to hard on myself, even more than those around me. I would put too much pressure on myself to be perfect, which I have learned and still learning there is no such thing. I have tried to keep my exceptions of myself realistic and not put myself down if I don't do something just right. We all make mistakes and learn from our mistakes. Each one of us are uniquely and wonderfully made and part of God's master plan. I pray you find the help you need, the underlying reason for your depression, and that you begin to feel better soon. Here is an article about depression that I found helpful. bit.ly/2tz7j7d Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. God Bless!
How are you doing this week? You have been in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs!