Angry all the time

[Angry101]

I haven’t been in this forum for about a year. I’m 59 years old. I have dealt with severe depression and anxiety. I’m on 5 different medications . I have had these mental issues all my life. I started seeing a physiotherapist in my early 40’s. Since then I have tried to commit suicide. The doctors said I wouldn’t make it through the night. As you can see, I made it. I was on life support for 30 days. I was doing ok, but now all of sudden I’m angry, all the time. Sometimes I will wake up fine, but as the day goes on, my anger is totally out of control. I’m cursing, and that is not me at all. This is an every day thing, and I can’t live the rest of my life this way. Anybody that will reply will be welcomed. Thanks for listening.

[Iloveart7]

Welcome back!

[Angry101 in reply to Iloveart7]

Thanks so much

[Strongheartforever]

We are here to listen and be a sounding board. You’ve taken the first step here, just coming forward. I hope you find some peace and get freedom from this burden you’re carrying. I wonder if this anger serves you somehow, maybe subconsciously, a barrier?

[swimmingupstream]

Hi I am struggling with anger at this time. What I found was journaling it helps me to get those unpleasant thoughts out of my head. Years ago I would write whatever thoughts came up. When I was done I would tear it up and throw it away so no one could read it. I felt better also knowing that no one could read it. It was a safe way to get my anger out without hurting anyone or myself.

[Angry101 in reply to swimmingupstream]

I tried to journal everyday,but it ended up as a diary. I was just repeating the day.

[AZ1970]

Did you have brain damage from the attempt? Was there a reduction in oxygen? The reason I ask is if your doctor has looked at this as a possibility. Brain injuries can cause anger and difficulty regulating emotions.

[Angry101]

The doctors said I have a injury to my short term memory.

[Beauty987]

Happy to have you back. Do you know why you are angry? The Anger Workbook by Les Carter is an excellent book in helping you process and deal with anger.

If you don't have a reason for your anger, it could be a reaction to your meds.

When I read that you attempted suicide and survived, I immediately thought of Ravi Zaccharias. He is an author and speaker who also survived a suicide attempt. I love to listen to him on YouTube, especially the talk titled "The Meaning of Life."

I hope you are able to get through this rough patch and find some hope.