Why?

[MeBeforeYou617]

Why? I ask myself this question all the time. Why am I here? Why am i going through this? Why am i still holding on? Why does it feel like no matter what i'm never going to be truly happy no matter how hard i try to be? Why am i so insecure? Why can't i let things go? Why? Why? Why? Everyday is a the same questions, everyday is the same struggle. Everyone around me acts like they get it. That they "understand" what i'm going through but they never do. They don't get it. They don't understand how hard it is to actually make it through the day. They don't understand the thoughts that are running through my head. I stopped talking about because it just makes them mad because they don't understand why i can't be happy they don't get why i'm making things so complicated for myself. I wish i could stop i wish there was a button or an emergency brake that i can pull so this way i wasn't like this anymore but there's not this is me Why can't i just learn to love the me that i am? Why do i need to change who i am as person weather i'm happy or upset or just down right sad just to make others happy? This mask that i put on everyday is tiring pretending to be someone else is exhausting having to smile all the time and act like nothing wrong is getting frustrating and maybe just maybe that's why things are getting bad again.

[Hidden]

I feel same 😔

[ChicagoGirl1961]

What are you doing to try and overcome feeling this way?

[Beevee]

The only thing you are holding onto is anxiety. If you allow yourself to think and feel everything willingly, allow yourself to fall into any state and stop trying to make yourself feel better, you will recover.

You won’t get better until you stop trying to get better. This applies to all people suffering from anxiety and depression. The more a person does to try and relieve their symptoms, the more those symptoms will persist. The less a person does to relieve the symptoms, the better they will feel, all in good time.

Check out the books written dr Dr Claire Weekes. If you practice her teachings, you will recover.

[321earthtome]

U r here because God wants u here. U have a purpose. Pray.

No, I'm not some religious fanatic. Don't even go to church.

But after living past 6 yrs with depression, and fighting God ("Why r You letting me go through this?") I finally realized I need to trust in Him.

I'm still depressed. Still often wish I was dead. But in my saner moments I now have HOPE. I now know there's light at the end of this tunnel. Please at least TRY to pray.