Today

[Igor4253]

I feel I need to thank everyone on here today that checked in on me... after weeks of doing ok yesterday I hit a rough patch dealing with another life hurdle.. in typical Igor fashion I went straight to the worst and let my sickness take over.. trying to function at work yesterday and today has been one of the hardest two days in over a year.. I made myself sick and tried to find a way to make the ending look like an accident.. it’s late in the evening and I am going home hopefully to wrest.. lucky to have friends here but I feel terrible I don’t have the courage to seek further help

Thank u

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry that you’ve had a horrible time... We are all here for you. Rest is definitely the good answer for you now... Please let us know you’re okay when you can. Xoxoxo

[kenster1]

hi igor sorry to hear that look at it as a minor blip things have been going well and that's amazing to hear don't let the one day set you back.keep striving for all the better days you deserve.all the best.

[tamka38]

Sorry u been having a rough time, sometimes we need a break and is

Ok to do that. Self care is what u need

Right-now, I hope u get the help u need

Soon so u want help to do it alone am here

If u want to talk. Hope u feel better soon and please keep reaching out on this site

We all care about u and u deserve to be happy. Sending u a hug 🤗

[Finx]

There’s this strange comraderie I feel knowing others are suffering also but there is so much support here. There have been a number of your posts that got me thru my bad days so keep coming back. One of your gifts is supporting others.

[Igor4253 in reply to Finx]

Thank I was doing soo good i normally a physical strong human but mental health is fragile and in 24 hrs I completely separated

[Clue in reply to Igor4253]

Remember when i said you inspire me? Please don't stop. You are very important to all of us. I may not post much but i read alot of them. Sometimes i know what to say but others i don't cause i understand the struggles.

[Igor4253 in reply to Clue]

Thank u

[Agora1]

You do have friends here Igor and friends don't allow those they care about to

get hurt. We are your virtually family who love and support you and will always

be here for you through thick or thin.

I'm not sure what holds you back from seeking help but what if we were to walk

the walk with you? I know how frightening it can be to get help but just think of what

your life might be like by taking that first step.

I like your username, it's a strong, powerful name. Know that you have whatever

it takes deep inside you. I once thought I was lost until I pulled all the strength I

had within me and came out to being a better me. We all need to love ourselves.

Believe in yourself Igor as I believe in you. You can do this. I'm not leaving your side

nor will the others. Our goal is to see each and every one of us reach a life they deserve.

Get some rest tonight my friend. It's been a long hard day and your body and mind need

to relax. We are only a message away if you need us. Goodnight Igor. Tomorrow is a

new day with a new beginning in starting over. One day at a time. x

[Igor4253 in reply to Agora1]

Thank your words made me cry... I just want to close down this pain...I’m going to bed early tonight and try harder tomorrow I got scared today.. closer than ever.. but something stopped me.. thank u

[Igor4253 in reply to Igor4253]

Sorry replied in wrong spot

[Agora1 in reply to Igor4253]

No problem.

[Agora1 in reply to Igor4253]

Sorry Igor, I got caught up in a doctor show

I hope you are sound asleep by now. Rest well my friend.

Talk to you tomorrow. x

[Jeff1943]

Igor, there is one good thing about anxiety: in reality the problems we face are nowhere near as major as anxiety makes out. Anxiety always makes us think worst case scenario and magnifies our problems by a factor of ten. And we fall for the trick every time.

What appears to be an insummountable problem, a mountain to climb, turns out to have been no big deal afterwards when we look back at it.

Do be constantly aware of this, Igor, the obstacles we face are never as big as they seem.

We forget to gain confidence from the problems we solve, we're too busy frightening ourselves half to death over the next (minor) problem. We're too occupied belittling our ability to sort problems to give ourselves a pat on the back (and increase our self-esteem) for successfully mastering the last one.

There's an old saying 'Every adversity brings with it the seed of a greater benefit'. But we have to look for that benefit to make it come true.

We lose a job, we end up with a better one. A relationship ends, it's followed by someone so much nicer. We get burgled, the insurance money means wr end up with much more modern stuff.

Anxiety always makes us put ourself down when really we are highly capable and intelligent individuals.

I hope you confront and overcome your present hurdle and quickly resume your progress towards happy days free from anxiety and depression before long.

[Igor4253 in reply to Jeff1943]

You r sooo true this hurdle is tiny compared to the last

[Hidden]

Hi Igor, I'm sorry you're having a hard time right now. I understand about not being able to get help. I've been dealing with depression for years and I've never gotten the help I need because the thought of it terrifies me. Since I was a kid I've kept everything bottled up and I'm afraid if I open that bottle everything would come out, including things I've never talked to anyone about, never even said out loud to myself. Things I don't want to face or deal with. But it's time to get help because I can no longer do this alone. We both need to find the courage to get the help we need. I've started by telling myself every day that getting help will be a very good thing and will make my life better. Until then, I'm so very thankful to have found and become a part of this family. We can work on building up our courage together, along with the support and encouragement from so many others. I hope you get much needed rest tonight and tomorrow is a better day. Like Agora said, one day at a time. Always know that you're not alone on this journey, Igor. We're all here for you.