I'm really sad today so depressed and down on myself. Went to our church x-mas carols last night and 2 of my kids came with me, 16 and 18. It was so good, I was excited we were going, had a great time, started tearing up when it was time to go as had to take my son home to his dads; he recently moved in with him ; which was what threw me into this depression because his dad( my husband) has been in and out of lives for20 years was abusive and rarely ever there emotionally for me and our children. Anyway when I started to cry a very close friend of mine had a very stern talk to me ; told me to keep it together and remember how lucky I am to have my kids there. I feel so stupid so down on myself, I feel so ungrateful and am wondering if all of this is my fault, like I've got to just pull myself up by the boot straps and get my self together. I feel useless and just want to isolate myself from all my support and tell them I'm doing fine now, maybe they're getting sick of me . It's shaken me up and I just want to hide away I feel so stupid so unworthy. I was starting to want to do things again that make me happy, like organising x-mas, cooking, cleaning ......but now I hate myself and feel that I've done all this to myself. won't be many years til my daughter moves out and I'll be left with no purpose. It feels like my family of 6 has gone to a family of 1 ; just me
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