Relapse

[Cat26538]

I was doing so good not drinking for 3 days. Well today I relapsed and I feel terrible. I hate myself for it. I need some serious help

[AZ1970]

Three days is a lot, what an accomplishment! Do you have support from groups or a therapist? You need help. Addiction is powerful. It is more cunning than your self control. Don't beat yourself up and keep moving forward.

[Cat26538 in reply to AZ1970]

Beating myself up is all I know how to do. I started going to meetings once a week. Unfortunately I can’t see a doctor or therapist anymore because I lost my health insurance

[SoberDrunk1 in reply to Cat26538]

Cat, grab the big book and start reading the stories. In all you will see the commonality. The mind plays a key role in it. It throws tantrums when we quit. Thats the main part of this condition. And then we succumb to the desire. And believe we the mind would say we will just have 1/2 drinks. If fact we would have thrown or given away all the booze away. I met a teacher on the recent Cruise. She did the same. But her internal conditions came un-glued a week later and went back to the neighbor and got 1 bottle back and started all over again. We have a problem with the body also. In AA we call it the craving. First we obsess and then we take a drink and then the craving starts. Also we are miserable when not drinking, because we dont know how to handle our emotions. Alcohol helped us but now, it has taken us over. Its a vicious cycle. Find a good person who can sit with you and walk you through the 12 steps. There are great workshops on the youtube too, you can listen to them and understand how the internal conditions lead us into a state of powerlessness.

[fauxartist]

best help you could have right now Cat is to do some meetings....yes.... you can.... it will give you the daily support you need to be around a bunch of others gettin and stayin sober...you don't have to talk to anyone if you don't want to, sit in the back of the room, and just listen. Get a sponser....so you have your go to person when you feel your slipping....you can do this.