I’m new to all of this. I’ve been a recovering addict for the past year and a half and that’s been my exposure to groups like this.
Last night I was feeling dark thoughts and called a hotline given to me by the therapist that comes to our job site. I talked with another therapist for an hour and she worried I was suicidal. It led to me being admitted at the hospital and receiving a psych evaluation. Unsurprising I was diagnosed with depression. I’ll be setting up an appointment with a psychiatrist today to get treatment per the evaluation last night. I’m not opposed to any treatment options they propose. In fact it’s a relief because I’ve been in denial about depression. I’m fine admitting other issues but the depression has been tough to come to grips with.
Now I say this cause I’m pretty scared. And chatting with people who are helpful, but don’t know how I feel, is tricky. And I have been told many times that I did the right thing last night and I’m strong for this but I admit it’s hard for me to actually agree with that. I feel pretty weak right now. I know that’s negative self talk but I’ll lay it out so I don’t pretend I’m “just fine”.
I’ve learned through anonymous addiction meetings the importance of talking things out. Thoughts feelings etc. so that’s kind of my goal here: connect with a group and keep talking things out so they don’t stay hidden.