DPDR

[AriesFire]

I have had depersonalisation and derealisation since i was 12 and i am now turning 29 this coming year . I was found hanging 2 weeks ago , this wouldn't be my first time , i have 7 - 10 stitches on m wrist . I feel like , i have went into the depths of the internet for years , into libraries , into doctors , onto medicine . I see no improvement , i see no fix here ...i see no research being actively promoted , funded , announced to the public . There seems to be zero concern to study and deal with this illness that many have and that literally ruins your life . I have been through a hard life all the way and still am and because of it , i am strong . There seems to come a point however when will , strength , just does not overcome logic . If i am not enjoying this life in this state , why would i continue it ...it seems pointless , to get mediocre satisfaction from my visual experience? to have zero emotions? to have zero connection to time , reality and yet ..i should just work right ? i should ..get over it , get through it , hang in there ...yeah well now its been 16 fucking years of hanging in and you know what the most pathetic part is , both times i have been saved from leaving this life .

Its odd how since i have notified no one prior to the moments they happened , attention helps no one , not even me or my illnesses . Now answer me this , if i did my home work , i did my studies , i went to my treatment and i took their medicine ...where's the hope you're all diluting yourselves with . Where is this magical cure? people who "got over it" ..... most come with a link eventually to some sort of purchase , wheres my cure cuz my doctors seem to have no idea what DPDR is , like its from a fucking comic book .

3rd times a charm i suppose . I hope at least fucking 1 of you actually got fixed somehow , ill believe almost anything at this point it seems ...just fucking hoping it would be true .

[fauxartist]

I hear you loud and clear and your absolutely right....science has not caught up with mental illness and too many like yourself are left suffering because of it. I don't completely understand your illness as I have different stuff, but there too like you said:

Where is this magical cure? people who "got over it" ....we don't just get over it, and there is no cure for depression, and it does not sound like you have found one for your illness either as obviously your in a great deal of pain. I'm sorry your not getting the support you need and can tell you the best I have ever had is to just keep trying to find management and coping skills. Still I spin out and have mini melt downs, and many here do too. Suicidal thoughts with the disease of depression are very common and I can say it sounds like everyone including myself have had this battle. I have no answers, no great words of wisdom that would change your life.....only that we are here listening, and are with you because we know what it feels like to be the forgotten, the dismissed, the over looked. I'm very glad though that your sharing, and it's heart breaking that your suffering so much, for that my heart aches for another who the system has failed...your not alone.