After several requests to my doctor to change my meds, she finally did two weeks. Was on 225 mg Effexor for a long time. The meds were beginning to lose its effectiveness and my emotions were all over the place. She put me on Prozac and is slowly weaning me off of the Effexor. I have to say that the transition has been smooth with no side effects. Today I took the last 75 mg capsule of Effexor. Emotional state is much more stable. So far, so good... right?
My narcissistic spouse has noticed the improvement as well. But, he just can’t help himself and has decided to continue his verbal abuse and tinker with my emotions. I’m able to control my emotions much better and how I react to his abuse. I guess the only way to solve this problem is to divorce him. It’s going to be tough going for awhile (especially with the holidays approaching), so I hope I can continue to rise above his verbal and emotional abuse. Wish me luck.
I’m starting to feel paralyzed and going downhill fast! And my significant other isn’t necessarily abusive, but most definitely doesn’t understand depression at all and actually feels a little bit victimized by the way I pushed him away during the worst of my depression right before my Suicide attempt. I tried to explain to him I stopped calling and answering his calls( he drives a semi for a living and is on the road a lot) because he told me I needed to stop being negative every time I tried to talk to him. I sent him articles and videos on depression but he would never respond to them or bother to talk to me about these things that I felt represented my severe clinical depression, I started to feel so alone and questioned my own thoughts and feelings and blamed myself for alienating humans my other friends and family that I loved and thought loved me
Improving
My thoughts were going south...
complaint line improv
Just when thins were getting better.
Am I truly a good person?
