Feeling very depressed this morning

[Cat_cat44]

Where to start: I had enough motivation to make my daughter breakfast and walk her to school but when it came to motivate myself, I don’t have it yet. I was supposed to came home, shower, and drive uber/lyft for a few hours until 12p. Instead I took a shower, and now im in bed until 11:30a. I have 0 motivation. My car was repossessed a few days ago (anyone ever had that happen?), you already know the backstory of thr whole relationship mess, and I have no desire to work. I’m on meds and I am in therapy, i have an appt tomorrow. I haven’t been there in a few weeks, she has no idea whats happened since. I have to work though because I owe money to a family member. Plus for myself and my daughter. I am blessed that she has a father that pays the rent and bills. When we were married I was working great jobs. Then when before we seperated i lost a great job. Fast forward 4 years later here I am. I am in the process of trying to enroll in school again but I have no motivation to pick up my transcripts and drive them to the other schools. There’s something deeply wrong with me, I just can’t seem to snap out of it.

[SmilesLots]

Wow! I so understand the lack of motivation. If you could see what my house looks like now - it's a mess from lack of motivation. I have stacks of mail to go through etc.

I'm sorry you are so depressed and unmotivated. I've committed to getting out of the house today and going for a walk. I've been in the house for so many days depressed (I telework). Can we make a pack that we will both go for a 10 minute walk today? And then share how we feel afterwards?

[Cat_cat44 in reply to SmilesLots]

Hi SmileLots thanks for replying. I been there with the stacks of mail. That’s great you work at home, wish I had the morivation to even do that. I am outside not by choice but because I had to pick up my daughter from school and we’re still outside so i guess that counts? I like the pact I hope you will too. I will let you know how I feel when I get back in. All my Aunt says is hold my head hi and keep moving. If only it was that simple.

[SmilesLots in reply to Cat_cat44]

Yes, if it was only that simple! It's like I have cement feet and can't move. I did make the walking suggestion to another on here and we're doing it. I just washed my hair - I can't tell you how long it's been since I washed my hair! And I'm getting ready to go out and walk. Hope you can make a 10 min walk with us?

[SuZQ154]

Sorry you are feeling like this. I have been there and understand. "Fake it until you make it" helped me to get through some devastating times. Doing what I didn't "feel" like doing, but doing it anyway made a difference. Calling a trusted friend and venting, exercising, sleeping, going to Bible studies and church, participating in a prayer group and support groups like DivorceCare and Celebrate Recovery, seeing a Christian counselor, and just "faking it" until FINALLY, I was making it. It took years and I am still in the process. There is HOPE. Please keep posting. We are here for you!