Ups and Downs

[KevinLiu]

For the past couple of days I thought I got better and I felt very positively motivated. However there’s one triggering incident that always brings me back to deep depression. I failed my relationship two weeks ago. Whenever she asked me those questions I immediately felt my body temperature dropping and become immobile. This morning I even had some hallucinations. I don’t know if I will ever forgive myself or get over it. Sorry for the rant. I know I should be more positive but it’s almost impossible at moments.

[HopeinGod]

Hi Kevin Liu, I’m not sure what you mean with “having failed my relationship” but obviously you are hurting. You also used the word “depression” and it seems you have suffered from this before. How did you get better? You also used the term “hallucinations” and I’m also wondering if you’ve suffered that before and if you have had help with that? Perhaps seeking counseling might help. Do you have a wise and trusted mentor that you can speak to about this situation?

One thing I would encourage you is not to condemn yourself. If it’s a health issue, it’s probably something that can be helped, so seeking help may prevent this from happening again. How is she taking all this? Please don’t be angry at yourself. All of us are imperfect and have failed many, many times. Soften your heart toward yourself, Kevin. Blessings

[KevinLiu in reply to HopeinGod]

Thank you! I am seeing a counselor and a psychiatrist. I guess healing takes time.

[HopeinGod in reply to KevinLiu]

Hi again, Kevin. Glad to hear. Many times we can’t do everything on our own. We all need help. How long have you been getting help? Have you noticed any difference now that you are getting help?

How are your family members reacting to your situation? What about your girlfriend? I’m sorry your are hurting, blessings