ups and downs

[purl1]

I had such a good day yesterday and today was not a good day. my anxiety is pretty high. Probably because I didn't really have anything to do with my time. There was no one around to spend my day with so I tried to do things around the house. It didn't work. My anxiety spiked and now I feel like I almost want to double up on my ativan to get through the rest of the day. It was so nice to not take any yesterday. I felt so good. I wish today was as good as yesterday. I'm tired of these thoughts and sensations that I keep getting. I never had it this bad before so why do I have to have them now? I feel beaten down.

[Timmypliskin]

I understand completely...

Even when I have a good day, I just worry about the ball dropping...

I have a whole week off work coming up and I'm dreading it, because all the time with nothing to do...

[ChicagoGirl1961 in reply to Timmypliskin]

Come on Timmy, there has got to be some things you like to do, right? Give it some thought and enjoy your reprieve from the job!

[Hidden]

I was that way yesterday. Day before that good day and then that cloud hovering over again and then today, a good day. I had idle time like yesterday and still a good day. That is why I wonder if it's not a trigger, just a broken record in my mind. I am noting it on calendar and seeing if it's a pattern. Don't forget, it will pass. If you need to take your medication, do so, that's what it is there for. I took something yesterday, I just had to so I wouldn't freak out. I wouldn't freak out, just makes me feel like I am going to.

[purl1 in reply to Hidden]

Just wish I could have more good days with no meds than bad ones with. makes me feel weak.

[Hidden in reply to purl1]

You are not weak, you are taking something to have a better quality of life. That's why people go on vacations, listen to music, exercise, join a bowling league, on and on. You are not hurting anyone, you are taking a legal medication. You are wanting a better quality of life. We all have stress, anxiety, depressing matters, worries, concerns, we need our coping methods. None of us are weak, we are just trying to have a better quality of life.

[Kat63]

I’m sorry you’re having a rough day. ❤️

[Needtovent]

I know those feelings all too well. ‘What’s gonna happen next?”, ie the ball dropping, racing thoughts, heart, and other sensations. The more you feel them and ACCEPT them, the sooner your body will react with fewer and fewer symptoms. Unfortunately we have all got overly sensitive nervous systems but this can be healed with the acceptance method (and sometimes medication and/or therapy). Look up Dr. Claire Weekes method. Sending virtual hugs to you all. Xoxo

[Mia1953]

You are not your thoughts and/or sensations. What did you do or not do yesterday that is different from today? Perhaps you need to go for a walk to get out of the funk you are in right now. You are not alone, so try to feel like you are a part of a much bigger plan. This too shall pass.