SSI checks housing voucher,is that what we're willing to comprise and settle for???

[Ncrazy]

Good morning good morning every one!woke up this morning with my beautiful fiancee.Thinking to my self I love this women hole heartly.Then

Then my unscheduled nervous break down,woke up to runing to the bathroom with my supper man pajama throwing up.intrusive thoughts aniexty,as I was leaning on the Persian Harley.no the Harley I really had in mind at 43 years old but ha.check my Craigslist see what grandma needs a handy man.tummy rumbling frog in my throat,tears in my eyes cigarettes in my lips. looking at my fiancee saying in my head I want to be the best man I can be for her.why is this happening? With the same breath I thought of her I get out the door.painful but today I'll try I love you trudy

[fauxartist]

sorry for all your chaos you had to go through, but it's lovely you have someone to love in this world.

[Ncrazy]

I do but like told some one mental illness is like nuclear reactor or like logus consuming everything in its path.

Then it took me a year to liquidate my 401k sick time personal time etc.get back on ssi taking my pride dignity honor etc.

You talking about someone to love I am trying to hold to it.

Then I go back to where I live the ghetto reminding me of pain I saw.even the small you walk in you smell cigarette B O foot odor etc.reminding me of the 4 blocked walls I was handle down by.scaring the shit out of me