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You've asked..here's MY story..

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At age 17/junior in high school was in my first MVA (passenger).We hit a car sitting at a light so hard our car started to smoke and was going to go on fire.My seatbelt broke,head through windshield and found under the dashboard..but pulled to safety before the car went on fire.Landed up being pulled from the school I was in , in order to heal for the next six months.Injuries not so bad..able to move on with life.

At age 27 was in my 2nd MVA (passenger)..this one was not good.I was in a truck that was lifted up so high it looked like the "Monster Trucks" everyone pays money to see crush little vehicles.We were going too fast in a residential neighborhood during a hurricane, and we went over a car that went through a stop sign.The truck I was in rolled n slid 300 feet upside down. I was trapped upside down in my seatbelt with about a foot left of the vehicle on my side.Unfortunately I was removed from the vehicle incorrectly because everyone was yelling fuel was spilling everywhere n they were afraid of fire.So..I got the worst care at the wrong hospital by the wrong doctors.Landed up having a stroke at age 27 during this MVA/traumatic head injury/broken nose/jaw broke on both sides/vision issues/whiplash/torn rotatorcuff/no feeling in 2 fingers on one hand/spinal problems/paralysis knee down rt leg/basal ganglia injury.All this and they released me the same night from the hospital n said I was fine!! I wasn't...went back next day because I couldn't stay awake...n they released me again.I landed up with a lot of undiagnosed conditions/no repairs to my jaw..no help for my stroke and etc.. till the other sides insurance doc figured it out! Yep!TONS of surgeries/PT/meds I needed and didn't need and diagnosis's that weren't even right.Right before this MVA I worked F/T as a bookkeeper n had my own business at night n on the weekends doing bookkeeping.All this was gone.People from work disappeared..family didn't want to drive 2 hours to help me or even call.Strangers who r now my "family" helped best they could.I was even diagnosed with serious things I never had..n put on meds for them.Of course I landed up with serious depression from all of it.I did the best I could on my own.I was on hundreds of meds over 20 years until my body couldn't take it n neither could i.The doctors were just using me as a guinea pig n didn't know how to say.."We Don't Know".I decided screw them all..ur all fired..n Im off all these meds.They advised me not to and told me I couldn't do it.Well it took me 6 years on my own n I did it.I decided to do other stuff/acupuncture/chiropractic/medical marijuana and etc...The biggest hurdle was learning to live with all this because all the meds were just bandaids.Nothing was going to heal what I was left with.I had to suck it up..be strong and deal.

Then...I landed up with a pacemaker..why? meds/family related who knows.Just had to deal with it!Oh yes..cant forget Ive got PTSD..duh!

At age 47 another MVA/passenger..this one I thought wasn't bad..released again with what they said was minor..whiplash.Wrong..I actually tore my rotatorcuff AGAIN..n even fractured a disc in my spine/found all this out years later!Spent a year on my couch in agonizing pain/depressionfor a year with no clue why.That was why.

Im basically a medical mess.If ya saw me u probably would have no clue except for my Canadian crutch I use when Im outn about..n my wheelchair when I wanna do something with others that I don't have the strength to walk., and I use it around the house.

I hear all the time "U look great"..makes me out of my mind because they have no clue what I go through on a daily basis with all my MVA injury residuals/ chronic pain/depression/anxiety occasionally and oh yes.. I also have Dystonia (from the meds/trauma from MVAS and etc.)I don't get out much n I live in the middle of nowhere..Its hard and isolating..I try to find humor in ANYHTING I can.It can be very sarcastic or dark at times..but it is what it is.If others don't get it..I don't care..its what helps me..and its NEVER meant in a mean way.

I Hope u can see where Im coming from with my posts..I hope I give hope to others..I hope I make someone laugh n smile..I hope I can help others going through what Ive been through.

That's my story..n Im sticking to it people!!

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Eowyn7 profile image
Eowyn7

Wow I'm so sorry all of this happened to you. If it were me I would have a real fear of cars after all that. So many traumatic incidents emotionally and physically. I'm glad you are still here!

in reply to Eowyn7

No fear of cars OR trucks for that matter...just the drivers.Id much rather be driving myself n in my vehicle.

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Agora1

Quite a story Monkeysmiles, quite an amazing woman. We never know what's behind

a smile do we? You've proven to be a Warrior and in that are passing your strength forward to others by bringing them some happiness. Your story reminds me that we should never wish we were like the person next door, the grass may not be all that much greener.

Life is what we make of it. You are proof of that. Happy Friday my friend! :) xx

in reply to Agora1

Im not gonna let it take me down that's for sure..Ive got people to make laugh n smile! LOL

Hope ur day is a good one also! :)

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Tikirob

Damnnnn! That’s all I can say to this, Yikes, I am going to zip my lips a little next time I think I had a bad week. So glad you were able to be strong and keep moving on.

in reply to Tikirob

Listen..we cant all be dealt a great hand in life..its what u do with it that matters.Your either gonna lay down n die or stand up and be heard.In my case..sometimes people don't get my type of humor or what I have to say..but no biggie..there loss!

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trapis2

You are one heck of a strong person to survive all that !!! My hat's off to you....Did you know head injuries are one of the causes of D&A? May have sustained damage to the brain that caused the chemicals to go out of synce.

in reply to trapis2

Yep..I definitely think it's part of my Dystonia.

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Catwoman2018

Thank you for sharing your story. You have been through so much and you inspire me with your strength. Keep smiling! x

in reply to Catwoman2018

Thank u for reading my story.smiles right back at ya :)

I’m so sorry all of this has happened to you. I seen some of your posts the other day & it really made me chuckle. I am proud to see that even though you’ve been through things most in this life can’t say they have been through, you still manage to keep your sense of humor. I’m glad you’ve joined the site. I’m always here for you if you need to talk! <3

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The only way you will see me cry is if someone eats my damn bagel or bread item ! Lol

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Eowyn7 in reply to

Omg bread is the best 👍

Thank you to everyone who read " my story".I've never told my story in a public sorta way like this before.I hope u remember my story n share it with others who need to know " there is a light at the end of the tunnel,ya just have to keep running towards it n don't give up.I also hope it helps others here,to open up n share there stories.Each of our stories might help someone else when there day is crap n they don't have any hope for tomorrow or even the next minute.hugs to everyone :)

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Shadow123-

Hi Monkeysmiles

What an inspiration- it certainly puts things in perspective and i get the dark humour - I use it too and i am quite proud of my skill with sarcasm !!!

Whatever works for you, I say and sc**w anyone who doesn't get it !!

Shadow

in reply to Shadow123-

More power too us n our sarcasm ,whatever gets USthrough the day.keep smiling

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Lazy_dog_lover

Wow. I am not judging, b/c I have been in a lot of MVAs, but living wrecklessly so young sounds like you were asking for help. I don't know why normal standard of care was not completed at the hospitals. Have you ever gone in-patient for PTSD and therapy? It may help you reset and restart.

in reply to Lazy_dog_lover

REALLY...LIVING WRECKLESSLY...I WAS A PASSENGER all 3 times, sitting there minding my own business.The only HELP I was asking for was QUALITY healthcare..which I didn't get in 3 STATES ! Ive been in SO much therapy I could be a therapist or a doctor myself. I have RESET n RESTARTED...Im helping myself n got rid of all the useless overprescribing doctors and etc.. who nearly killed me over the years with there EDUCATED GUESSES. Im doing JUST FINE !! Thanks for your reply and Have A FABULOUS DAY! :)

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Lazy_dog_lover in reply to

I was a passenger in 3 of my 13 MVAs, so I know the PSTD that comes from that. I did not know the whole story. No offense meant. I was just brainstorming. I don't know where you live, what level of hospital you were at (some are not meant for high trauma) or what insurance you have, so I cannot speak to those. Each state has a review board for medical care. Start there if your care is substandard. Apologies.

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