Is this good bye?

[Jayman3]

I wrote a long post earlier but it deleted when I forgot to save .

Summary : I moved to be with my BF(been together 1.5yrs) in another state 9 months ago and now share a house with his mum and 28yr old you her brother . Am 30 hues 31. He works in another state Monday-Friday so he leave for work Sunday evening and gets back Friday nights or some weeks Saturday .

At first , our relationship was alright , now I just feel like it has fizzled out.

I get angry all the time when he calls and I start picking fights here and there. Tonight I sent him this when he called and the line disconnected . Before I paste I will like to state we use to talk every night when we just met but now he’s always working or studying and I just hate seeing my phone ring from him. Here is my text “””Disconnected and thought you did - yet you didn’t se me asking.

I feel a type of way. Like I have lost myself . I don’t think it’s fully because of your traveling , I think I just need to find myself. But am not sure here is where I can . Not saying anything negative but this is all a bit weird “””” AND “”””I think some times it goes away but most of the time it’s in my subconscious. When we met I can swear I saw more of a future for us. I don’t wish to blame you cos I am to be blamed too but if we don’t work on this sooner, I think i would have packed up and moved to **state*** for nothing “”””

Do you think am trying to give up but scared? I feel like my depression is coming back but I try to hit it as he doesn’t know