Triggered and sad

[comb]

that's the way it goes.

[Lakewolf]

comb, please post some more, ok? PM me if you don’t want to talk about it publicly.

[comb in reply to Lakewolf]

I'm having a really hard time at work today. I realized I forgot to do something on Friday, and I feel really overwhelmed with everything. I'm going on a huge trip next week and it all feels really scary. And today, I just don't even feel like i'm good enough to be emailing people and making things. I feel frozen.

Yesterday I went to the OBGYN for the first time after being diagnosed with PTSD. I had to relive the sexual assault and it felt really weird talking to her. Plus, being back there put me in the same mind frame that I was when I first went there. I was desperate for help and I'm just now realizing how absolutely terrifying the last year has been. I'm just scared right now. I feel like I'm going to lose my job because I'm not good enough. idk. I know it's not right but I'm sure it's exhausting working with someone with PTSD.

[Lakewolf in reply to comb]

I too have PTSD, from a different set of circumstances.

Do you know anyone you feel safe with who could accompany you on this trip?

Let me know, ok?