No matter what i do or take or believe, my depression comes back. I feel my self esteem, self image, my confidence, my knowledge etc is low. I feel like im not getting anywhere. Like im just disappointing and I have no love.
I think of hurting others a lot.
I think of not being human anymore. Like maybe I need to be another organism or not exist anymore. I just want to be a memory. I feel like im not making the world better.