why do we have medications?

[Ashbear18]

Its simple. I have depression, severe anxiety, bipolar, and dissociative identity disorder. I take well i used to take medications, but i cant take pills anymore due to the fact that with my DID i overdosed on the pills they gave me. I feel like i cant be me. That i am going to be judged for everything. No one listens to what i have to say or if i ever need someone no one is there. Everyone says that they know how i feel or what im going through. But unless they have been in my shoes i dont think they do. My grandmother thinks im crazy because with my DID i hear the personalities talking to me in my head. When i black out one of them comes out and i feel like im locked deeper inside and im just not myself. I have attempted suicide over 17 times since i was 13. Now ill be 20 in a little over three months. I guess it just be better if people would just sit there and listen to what i have to say. It hurts knowing i dont have anyone.

[Kshisiali48]

I’m so sorry that you are having such a difficult time. You are a very strong person. You have been able to overcome such difficult obstacles. I hope that you will find the help you need.

[SamuelJ52]

Hey man, so sorry to hear about your troubles. Honestly you don't have to worry about anyone else, not everyone will understand but at the same time it is surprising how many people have had, or know someone who has been through some serious mental illness and most people are ultimately empathetic. I really recommend giving meditation a try (put 'Jon Kabat-Zinn' into YouTube) it worked wonders for me when I was in a place of constant severe anxiety. Talking things through with a counsellor or psychologist can be fantastic too, they will help you spot patterns in your thinking that lead you to feeling bad. Best of luck ✌️

[Ashbear18 in reply to SamuelJ52]

all of the psychologists and therapists i have been too have messed me up on so many medications and thought i was crazy