Why do I feel like this

[Shezza1]

Well just over a week ago I wrote a post saying how I felt suicidal. Thankyou everyone who responded. But why do I still feel like this. It's like I'm in between the devil and the deep blue sea. I really cant see no way out. Everything just feels black. Not even my kids bring me joy. I'm on robot mode. Take the kids to school and them go to work. Everyday is the same. The suicide feeling is getting too strong to ignore. Getting a doctors appointment is like trying to win the lottery. One in a million. I'm at my wits end now. I cant do life for much longer

[hypercat54]

Hi did our previous replies help at all? To me it seems obvious that you are very overworked. Having 2 jobs and being a single parent of 4 without becoming tired and stressed is impossible under these circumstances. You need to think about making some serious changes.

Keep persevering with your doctors. Why not send them an email saying how you feel and the difficulties of getting an appointment? Ask them for a telephone appointment with a doctor and then tell him/her what's going in. Doctors are able to book you in for a face to face themselves. Don't give up please.

[Shezza1 in reply to hypercat54]

Thankyou for replying back to me. I've tried speaking to the receptionist and she said dial 999. I haven't done so cos somebody might need an ambulance for a heart attack or something really major. I'm just so tired. Everyday is a chore. I know the only person to help you is yourself. I know I need to make a change but I've no energy.

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Ur not alone!!

[Hidden]

Never feel like ur..reach out to a friend or find therapy

[Shezza1 in reply to Hidden]

I've reached out to my family and my friends. They think it's a phase . First few days they messaged me and now probably 8 days on and nothing

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[Millie35123]

You are not alone!

[Doyg]

I feel that way too. I am waiting for psychiatry later this month. It's hard to see a future right now but there is one.