Harder and Harder.

[Madysen019]

I have had a rough three weeks. With being sick, not keeping on top of meds, family issues and my depression. I find myself waking up at 3-4am and then pushing myself to stay up because of my classes. I’m a freshman in college. My attendance is struggling because of my sleep deprivation. My grades are because of my depression and manic episodes. And now I don’t even have the energy to shower or even go to the bathroom. I am stuck in a really tough place. My boyfriend is a big support but has been busy. And because of that I’ve been lashing out verbally at him for not paying attention to me when I know he really is trying his best. He’s a freshman in college too and we are in different states. We are seeing each other for the first time in 6 weeks this weekend so I think that’ll give some motivation to get my work done. I see my counselor tomorrow morning and I’ll talk to him as well. I just feel trapped and it’s my own doing but I don’t know how to stop it. I can’t go to my med provide till November. I need them adjusted. I need something for the depression. Right now I take Prozac for my anxiety and Ablilfy for my moods swings. But I feel like they aren’t working when I do take them. Yet I can’t just stop and I did. I need advice. I feel like I’m spiraling out of control. 😪

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Been there many times, the sleep deprivation sucks. Whenever I’m stressed my sleep is the first to go. Try a sleeping pill to help for a while, also taking epsom salt bath before bed helps. If it gets bad enough consider taking a semester break from school to get yourself healthy again.

[APOR2017]

Madysen I am so sorry for all that you are going through. I have been in a similar situation and I know you can make it through this. The best advice I can give is take care of yourself. Your emotions and feelings are completely understandable and normal. You are going through a lot of life changes, so try to focus on your health as much as you can. I believe in you!