Alone

I feel as nobody understands me. Alone. I have extreme social anxiety and other issues I won’t go into that now. I tried to talk to try to talk to even professionals I got nothing. I just get the passed under the rug type of reaction . So yes moving along. I truly feel there is no one out there it’s just me People they don’t get me or it!No one out there i feel I can connect or actually talk to. I’m smart enough to know it’s more of a trust issue, However, I can not get get close enough to anyone to trust anyone can talk to it sucks being alone. Anyway I feel people will get scared if you tell everything and I don’t consider myself an open book. That’s where the anxiety kicks in here gear and I can’t be around people I have get away and isolate

[MariaLove123]

You are not alone my friend. I hate the feeling of no way out or this is never going to end. It’s frustrating and definitely can be a lonely feeling. But you have us and we all are here for you. Maybe you need a small change whether it’s medication, a new therapist or trying out things like essential oils (so calming) writing, going for a walk, a nice drive, downloading one of those calming apps or just talking on here. I’m sending you lots of love 💕

[Hidden in reply to MariaLove123]

Thank you your words are very very kind and and and make me feel feel. Thank you s for being being there for me!

[MariaLove123 in reply to Hidden]

Sure! 🤗

[countryboy1]

Wow, you said a whole lot in a short note. I have the following for you.

1. Trust, do you trust the confidentiality of this website? I ask that because you can speak freely here and I promise we will not judge you.

2. You touched on several different issues. If you trust the website, I suggest you pick one and go into more detail. It will help you begin the healing process.

3. I know that you don't trust the professional therapist, but keep going anyway, as you slowly begin building trust toward that person, you will slowly be more able to open up to him or her.

Remember we care about you here!

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Thank you!

[LadyO4]

Your situation sounds so similar to something I have experienced in my own life. Years and years of struggling to connect to someone who could read me like a book only exasperated me and wore me out. What was I hoping for that drove me to place all this pressure on people? What did I need so desperately from people? And why couldn't they give it? It took years to discover the answer. I understand how you feel.

I never considered myself to be the co-dependent type of person, in the sense of it being a weakness and a mental instability, but I did recognize the fact that God placed us on this earth with the intention of bringing us fulfillment through meaningful relationships. I think it's when a person feels disconnected and not worthy to be accepted, that they plummet into depression and begin to believe they have no value to anyone. But that is just a big fat huge lie. Every human being was created with a purpose. Many cannot discover what that purpose is, and therefore, give up.

I beg you to begin looking in another direction for meaning in your life. There is one who loves you beyond what you can comprehend and will listen to every detail of your heart whenever you cry out for help. There is someone whose love for you is unconditional, relentless, incomprehensible, unchanging, and forever. Please don't lose heart. There is hope, whether you are able to see it right now or not.

God put many wonderful people on earth and gave them a mission to reach out to those in your similar type situation. There are those who want to pull you up to a place where you can be confident in who you are. They can be found everywhere; in churches, in Christian counseling ministries, hotline workers, group supports, and others.

I hope and pray you find the courage to take that next step and trust that God has something special just for you.

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I agree with you

[sarengeti]

Joining Toastmaster helped me a whole lot. It’s a definite, most inexpensive CURE for social anxiety. I bet you will love it.

[Hidden in reply to sarengeti]

I’ll have to look into that. Thank you!