I don't feel real anxiety or depression...but i feel and think of the fact that all my efforts with job hunting are hopeless. I am doing so much to find a job...but this morning i think negative thoughts and don't feel energy to keep going in searching.
I know what brought me to feeling this way this particular morning. I went to the agency yesterday and the woman there was nice and polite and said she will send me a description of one position, if i want to apply, and she will keep looking for me after that as well. BUT she did not send me anything so far...and i already have this experience of agents talking to me very nicely and giving me hope and after i leave the office, i would never hear from them again.
I have a plan...and i even have now something to accomplish in this plan to boost my resume...but thoughts of this morning make me doubt that any of it worth it...
I am not going to stop and i am going to proceed with my plan, it is not so bad yet...i am not in a hole yet which would make me just be idle and not do anything.
The thing is that if i stop and give up i have no idea what meaning my life will have.