School anxiety😱😱

[lovedogs51511]

Starting cna classes Oct 9th and I'm having more and more anxiety as that day gets closer. I just cancelled going to the petsmart adoption event Saturday due to freaking anxiety and the terror I felt. I just couldn't get past it. Hating myself for that failure but will continue to try again. It won't be easy but if I keep trying maybe it will get easier!?!?! So now starting classes is freaking me out beyond belief!!!! Other CNA classes I've taken in the past I was called stupid during class!!! The one in Vegas I had to beg students to be in their group to learn certain skills! Even the teacher said can she be in your group. Ummmm that was horrific and soooo embarrassing!! I just want to commit suicide cause I'm just a horrible person according to every person out there!! I need to complete these classes but as you might see I'm 😨 terrified!!! Ppl have picked on me since beginning elementary school. Ill never get passed anxiety cause ppl have always said your stupid, fat, ugly the list goes on forever! So it must be true. If it still keeps happening as an adult what am I to think??? Anyhoo, I've just had it with trying to be nice! I get hurt over and over and over again. That's why being housebound works for me!!! Its comforting, I don't deal with ppl and I don't get hurt! Sorry I feel like I'm always complaining. No more it will be all positive from now on😄 Ok these classes will hopefully be different. Hoping and praying ill enjoy them and maybe meet nice ppl. Take it one second at a time☺

[Hidden]

Hey there, girlie. First things first, you have the prettiest eyes ever! You are NOT stupid, fat, or ugly! I am so sorry that you’re hurting & dealing with this! I know all too well what it’s like to be inside your own head all the time & feel embarrassed about things. I can feel the pain from your post. Please do not ever give up on yourself. I am so proud of you for taking your life back & starting CNA classes. Do you know how incredible that is????? That’s an amazing accomplishment. You’re taking the right steps to finally being happy & living a healthy life. I know it’s not easy, but just repeat in your head that you can do this over & over again. You know why??? Because you CAN!!!! You will go to those classes on October 9th & you will get your license!!!!! I am so excited for you! I am always here for you if you need someone to talk to! Please go easy on yourself, love! Everything will work out!!! Love & lots of hugs to you!!!!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Omg you are such a dear💝💝 Thanks for your beautiful words! Your so kind, caring and awesome☺ I sure hope your right!! All I can do is just try and try and go in with a smile even if terrified!!! I truly thank you for all that you said😄😄 Ill keep saying I can do this cause my mind just concentrates on all the mean stuff ppl say!!! I wouldn't be so stressed if it was just back in school as a kid but it continues as an adult. I guess what they say,is true adults are just as evil as kids are!! I just keeping rereading your kind words. It most definitely helps and many thanks to you dear!!! Lots of bear HUGS to you!!! Thanks for being a friend💝😄

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

I agree with you in that lovedogs has the most amazing blue eyes, a warm smile and a caring heart. Just made for a medical profession. xx

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Agora1]

Oh you guys are way to SWEET!! Wish ppl were nice like this in person! Would be so wonderful💝 I'm soooo amazed agora1 that you were an awesome Paramedic in such a huge city like Chicago!!! Wow I'm impressed!! That would be so amazing!

[Agora1 in reply to lovedogs51511]

lovedogs, I believe in you and that you will make in through your CNA classes. We are all afraid when starting a new path in life. But if it's something we really want, we go for it and the feeling of accomplishment is like no other.

My daughter was hindered by her Anorexia but wanted to follow in the medical field as well. She got her certificate for CNA and then went on to getting a CMA.

She is too ill to work but lives with what she has accomplished. I'm proud of her and will be just as proud of you. x

I'm behind you all the way. You've got this xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

This reply is so beautiful, Agora.

[Agora1 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you Starrlight. We all have that dream we must follow xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

💕

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

I so agree!!!#

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Agora1]

I'm so sorry your daughter suffered anorexia! I've seen how hard it is for someone with anorexia. I'm sorry that she still is suffering. Its such a horrible illness to deal with. I bet your daughter is just beautiful!💝💝 And yes she accomplished so much!!! Proud of her for doing that. Inspirational honestly😊 I can say yes if her daughter managed to do all that then I can do it too☺ Thank you for sharing Agora1!

[metalminded]

I'm sorry to hear that Kacey!! I certainly understand the anxiety over going to class and being new and having had issues in the past with classmates.

I have a similar fear of school in general. I haven't been a very good student since I started community college in the early 90's. I've had some serious trouble with math, and hate myself because I have such trouble.

However, don't let anyone treat you like that or make you feel like that. To hell with them. If they are like that, how do they expect to take care of others. They don't belong there.

You have to be true to yourself and try your hardest, give 100%. You can't give more than that. If you have trouble, make sure you speak with your instructors, they will help, that's what they are there for.

I have confidence that you will have no trouble and will be an awesome CNA!!!!

[Hidden in reply to metalminded]

AMEN!!!! This is some amazing advice. Don’t worry about what other people are doing. You’re in that class because you have a right to be there & get your license to help people. I know it’s hard to focus when people are being mean to you, but you gotta be your own best friend sometimes! If you seen someone else being treated like that in class, I am sure you would be that persons friend! Treat yourself that way because you deserve it! You can do this! You will rock those CNA classes, girl! This is coming from an RN! 😉 Good luck!!!!🍀💪🏼🤟🏼💕

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Omg I can see you being a nurse!!!😄😄 You care with your whole ❤ and I bet your the most caring awesome nurse they have!!! That's sooo fantastic!!! This is all amazing advice! I will most definitely keep rereading this stuff cause its been really helping thanks sooo much to you all!! Time to go rock these classes like ya said girl!!! Rock on sista 😄😄😄

[lovedogs51511 in reply to metalminded]

You are so kind hearted Leigh!! Hugs friend! Yea that's true if they treat me horribly how good of a caretaker can they be??? Very true!! Like you I cannot figure out math to save my life!!! Yikes!!! Just doesn't make sense to me😱 I've got learning disabilities but having the ADHD and now have absolutely no memory is scaring me to death. Like you said all I can do is go give it 100%😄😄 Thanks and hugs Leigh!!!

[metalminded in reply to lovedogs51511]

You're welcome! and Thank you as well! That's the thing about math, you hit it on the nose, it literally doesn't make sense to my brain! I hate that fact about myself. I need to find a good tutor.

[bw333]

I can tell U r special. I think U r definitely attractive! Will be praying for U!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to bw333]

Thanks and I could use so many prayers🙏🙏🙏

[Starrlight in reply to lovedogs51511]

Prayers for you from me too

[Starrlight]

I wish there were more yous out there because then this world would be a better place. You are sweet, genuine, down to earth, beautiful and strong, Kacey! And fun to talk with! I love you so and if someone doesn’t well thier taste in people sucks.

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks to you also for being such a friend. You all are just amazing I could cry in happiness☺ Your kind words are just warming my ❤ Starr!! I LOVE YOU TOO!!! I'm so glad I met you Starr!! I'm feeling grateful for everyone on this site. Without it I'd lose my mind😵😲😳 Thank you again. HUGS Starr

[Starrlight in reply to lovedogs51511]

Oh haha I just messaged ya thinking you were mad at me! I’m glad you are happy and grateful... I know I love it here too...

[Hidden]

Hey there my dearie...it's going to all work out...why..because you are just so so special! You have got to stop putting yourself down beautiful girlfriend! Do you need a pick me up from little old me? I'm taking a break right now, ring if you like! Love, peace, light, joy & hugs!!!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Silly lady I'm good. Just anxiety trying to get me down. I'm just going to rest my eyes. Thanks for being such a great friend and calling today!!! LOVE YOU LADY😄😄😄😄 Hope Lou is good!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to lovedogs51511]

Forgot lots of bear HUGS and loves and many 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[Hidden in reply to lovedogs51511]

You know all is good here at the homefront, hahaha! Keep your power girl! Rest those beautiful eyes & know how much I love you & am here for you! Love, peace, light, joy & hugs!!!

[gogogirl]

Weren't you a CNA before? Hey, if an adult called you names in class- I am so sorry- sounds like that is the WRONG type of person to be a CNA. YOU are the right type of person, and you've got this. Look at how far you've come. I know what it's like to sometimes zig zag in life- but please be proud of yourself, and I will bet not only Petsmart but other organizations will have events. I give you credit for having the courage to push forward and to even have plans to try again! You have a really nice smile, and I can tell already that you have a great personality, and a caring one at that. Look at all of the support you've gotten here , and that is a constant, and it's real. I will PM you as well.

[MakingProgress7]

best of luck to you! You are NOT all those things. Those are just ignorant people. You are a beautiful human being with many gifts inside you. I hope you find them. Good luck in your class, you can do it! 👊

[Celtic27]

Hi love dogs please don't. Think your a bad person you are a nice person who is being misunderstood by other if only they would take the time to know you they would be surprise at what a nice person you are! Please try and avoid dark thoughts as I call them and seek out someone you can trust to talk with you at that time! I don't know if you remember me I'm David I used to talk to you though this group if I can help please message me and when I notice i will get back to you take care best luck david

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Celtic27]

Hiya David😄 Thank you so much David for your sweet and kind words. Everyone's made my day!! Can't thank you guys enough!!! I do feel much better. I only get this extreme anxiety cause ppl I see in person give me a shit look and judge me like I'm an instant asshole! Excuse my language but I get frustrated cause all I want is to be given half a chance! I've never been evil towards ANYONE!! I'm always super nice and care about others. Just don't get it back except on this site!! I love each one of you I talk to😄😄💝💝😄😄😄 Thank you so very much for being a friend David you rock brother!!! Have a very good evening😄