Thinking it’s time to throw in the towel

[Svtempus]

I have been pondering for weeks to remove myself from the equation. My life, due to my mistakes has become stagnant and I do not have much of a future. I’ve become a burden to my parents and my therapist. I feel lonely both physically and mentally and. It seems the best option is to remove myself. I just wish I got up the courage to just do it. It doesnt make sense to burden anyone anymore.

[Maskoff]

It's crazy how this sounds likes my own thoughts most days but today was a little better.

Don't believe everything your mind tells you.

Repeat; life is a blessing, you are worthy, things will get better.

[Rjkookoo]

I’ve attempted and contemplated suicide several times. I know what it’s like to mentally be in the hole your in. Can you make amends for the mistakes you’ve made? You should never feel like your a burden to your therapist. That’s what they’re there for. If your therapist gives the impression that your a burden to him or her, find a new one immediately. A patient and a therapist need to have a bond.

[Svtempus in reply to Rjkookoo]

She’s a great therapist, but I’m becoming a drain on her, the effort she puts in for me is going to hurt her and I don’t want to hurt her, I know she cares a lot about me and the fact is the only reason Im alive today is because of her but im no loner worth it

[Rjkookoo]

It’s great to hear that you think that highly of your therapist and that she cares so much about you. You say you don’t want to hurt her, but I think she’d be pretty devastated if you took your life. With that said, you have to find a reason to stay alive. I’m not going to blow smoke up your butt and tell you things will get better, because I don’t know you or your situation. Try to focus on one person that you can repair or improve your relationship with. Find 1 good thing and make that your reason to stay alive. Mine is my 12 year old daughter who has Leukemia and underwent a bone marrow transplant last October. Find 1 good thing and if you think you can’t, look again.

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Reasons to Stay Alive by Matt Haig

[Benny3221]

This is a terrible and terrifying feeling because I feel that way also. Wish I could help honestly.i want to believe that I’m not a burden or that I’m just making up things , but my situation is very real. It sucks that we feel this way, but if makes you feel less lonely I’m in the same exact boat anyways sending you some love from a broken person himself best wishes to you!

[hypercat54]

Hi how do you know you are a burden to your family and your therapist? Have you asked them ? I say this because I think it's your thoughts not theirs. If they didn't want you in their lives they would have kicked you out of it surely?

If you didn't want someone in your life wouldn't you get them out of it? I know I would. The only reason people stay with you is because they care, and because they care they would be devastated if anything happened to you. They would blame themselves coz they couldn't save you and feel guilt and pain for the rest of their lives. What a way to repay them for being there for you. Have a think about this. x