Depression

[MuffMuff]

Hi whoever is out there. I don’t know what to say. I just feel so sad. I truly need some support, I feel so alone I don’t know what to do.

[MrsMcRed]

i feel the same way. everyday, all the time. i may have a good hour or a good couple of hours but it sets in at some point and i feel the pain all over again...

[MuffMuff in reply to MrsMcRed]

It’s the worst feeling. Especially to feel alone when there’s people all around. It seems like not only does no one understand but it also feels like no one truly wants to understand. I just feel like I need to get away. I’m starting to feel so bad about myself too, I don’t know how to shake it.

[MrsMcRed in reply to MuffMuff]

i tottally understand. my husband took me to the er the other day and they just sent me home ... like why do u not take that seriously??? i attempted suicide last week and they said oh your fine now, go home pretty much... so i understand completely.

[MuffMuff in reply to MrsMcRed]

I just don’t wanna feel like this anymore. I honestly don’t know what has to happen to change it. I’ve tried pills but they make me feel sick and more anxious. I guess I’ll just cry myself to sleep and try to convince myself tomorrow will be better. I just need like some kind of blueprint, I wish there was a step by step way to make this all go away. My husband is knocked out, sleeping like a baby and I’m suffering. I just need to go to sleep.

[Strongheartforever in reply to MuffMuff]

Blueprint: The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.

[Hidden in reply to Strongheartforever]

Love Eckhart Tolle!

[Strongheartforever in reply to Hidden]

Me too! Talk about “blueprint, step by step way” to get out of negative thought circles! I promise, if you read his words, you will heal your life. Every human needs his wisdom.

[Juliagail in reply to MuffMuff]

Ive been there over and over. I don’t have many answers but know you are not alone. Walking in my favorite places helps me, or a chat with a friend or loved one.

[mentalcase in reply to MrsMcRed]

I've been to the ER wanting help with my depression and I always get locked up in a mental hospital. It is awful. I've learned not to cry out for help because I don't want to be locked up anymore. In the state I live, anyone can commit you.

[Agora1 in reply to mentalcase]

Hi mentalcase x I'd like to Welcome you to this caring site. It would be better

if you responded to a current post. (this one goes back 3 years) We'd like to give

you the best understanding and support that we can.

I read your profile but I see you haven't posted anything yet. Once you do, you will

get responses that will help your needs. I'm glad you are here with us xx

[mentalcase in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. I don't know how to find the most recent posts.

[Agora1 in reply to mentalcase]

I'm using a computer not a cell. For me, there is a HOME button at the left top of the

page. When you click on that it should show you the more recent posts and responses. xx

[MrsMcRed]

yea, i agree with you.. and i was up until 3am last night while my husband slept next to me. it’s like it all hits me at night and gets worse and worse as the night goes on.

[MuffMuff in reply to MrsMcRed]

Yes! The night is definitely the hardest and the longest par of the day.

[Carmen810]

Sorry you are going through that. I too have those issues where I get lonely and feel sad. Do you have any family support or close friends to turn to?

[MuffMuff in reply to Carmen810]

No. I don’t. I don’t know if I’m isolating myself, but I don’t have any one person I can call a real friend or a close friend. Not one and I wish I did. I have a husband and my kids but they don’t understand and my husband I don’t know if he’s here for me or over it honestly I feel like he just wish I was “normal”. I feel no empathy.

[Carmen810 in reply to MuffMuff]

I understand completely. My husband and kids are the same way. I too don’t have a big social network or family. I think the more isolated you are the more depression you feel. Not fun at all. Everyone here is a support system though. I suffer from anxiety and depression and have for years. It’s so sad it has to be such a problem.

[Hidden in reply to MuffMuff]

Hello, so sorry to hear that you are struggling at the moment. I'm not sure what 'normal' is. We are all individuals and at some point in our lives have either a physical or mental illness, or both. We all need to have more patience, care and understanding of ourselves and others. Think about what it is exactly that you want, write it down if that helps, and then make plans to get to where you want to be. As they say, every journey starts with a single step. Take care,

[MrsMcRed]

the night, and when i wake up are the two worst times for me... i get sad that i woke up another day feeling the same, and get sad at night because i feel guilty and stupid for feeling this way 😔

[MuffMuff in reply to MrsMcRed]

I feel like that in the middle of the day. I just feel like it’s all a waste. I be feeling useless and invisible.... like I’m just there... but if I wasn’t it wouldn’t even really matter.

[MrsMcRed]

same....

[Scigy1]

None of you should lose hope, I’ve been to the lowest of lows a number of times in my life and even recently but in the short run the only cure seems to be time. For me, the fog always lifts after major stressors subside like some major life event or a deadline. Anxiety is what leads me down a path of depression. However, over the long haul there are many things you can do and must do to shorten and make more tolerable the challenging periods. Talk therapy, medications, exercise, support groups, volunteer work all help build resilience.

[Scigy1]

I know what some of you mean when you say you feel lonely and depressed at night. That happens to me all the time and I wish I had a way to escape it but I really don’t. Listening to podcasts on anxiety and depression have helped somewhat.

[Hidden]

Don't feel so alone. You have us here. This support group is great to have when you need it.

[Imakook]

Hi, Muff Muff!

We will support you 1,000% right here in this forum. Most, if not all, of us know exactly what you are going through.

So, how have we dealt with feeling the way you are feeling?

Well, I can only speak for myself...but every person here will have a unique perspective on what gets them through. The following is how I try to help myself.

I am a spiritual person...mainly because I am not a religious.

[Imakook]

Oops, pressed send accidentally. As I said, I'm not religious but I'm very close to my Higher Power, who I call God. He is kind & not punishing. So I do pray, but I try not to do it selfishly. I'll ask for his will for me and how I can be of help to someone.

The other thing I do when I'm feeling sad and hopeless is to journal. Believe me. If you look back at a later date, you'll see progress! If you do these things regularly, especially helping someone that is vulnerable, the dark clouds might just lift from you.

Of course when I'm at my bleakest, I am fortunate to have health insurance. I'm able to be on meds that work. I take Cymbalta and Welbutrin without having side effects. I also see a therapist and psychiatrist regularly. Ok, I guess I am cheating. I pray that somehow every single person on here gets health care!

One last mention - here's an excerpt from my journal:

"I'm tired of panic; I'm tired of worry; I'm tired of not enough energy; I'm tired of appointments; I'm tired of borrowing money from _____ & I'm tired of being stuck! THERE! I wrote down my fears so now I can think about others and deeply pray, for example, that both my bff, ______, & my H.U. Forum buddy, _____ , have good, if not great, outcomes for their recent cancer crises. Both are a rare breed; for they each possess a core strength & positivity that lifts people up."

So these are some of the things I try so that I'm less depressed. Humor is really important, too.

Take care, Hon! Hope to see ya back!

Hugs! Colleen

[hrow]

I'm sorry to hear you say that. Days can be hard but if it continues I would talk to a pastor or counselor. They can help a lot listening to us and giving us some suggestions. You don't want to let it go too long and start feeling worse.

I will be thinking and praying for you.

H