Currently struggling

[Itsjustme44]

Went to see a therapist today. It’s been about 4 years. I was seeing my last therapist for about 5 years, then unfortunately her husband was diagnosed with cancer. I struggle to find a new therapist because my last one was perfect for me. She’s not practicing anymore. I feel like I opened a lot of old wounds. I’m hurting right now. Being cold to my bf 😢 feeling like I may be better alone. Leave him before he leaves me. Anxiety burning inside

[Hidden]

Good job seeing a therapist again. You are having an emotional hangover from opening up the old wounds. Have you heard of love avoidance? There is a book called Facing Love Addiction and it talks about love addiction and love avoidance. That maybe a really good topic for you to look into.

[Itsjustme44 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! I have not heard about it. I will definitely try it out!

[AZ1970]

That is normal. Your pain and trauma are talking. Don’t believe the lies. You shouldn’t leave feeling so raw. Your therapist can help you learn ways to leave therapy there. You have to be able to function.

[Barnabas17]

I'm so sorry you're in this difficult place right now. It's been awhile but do you still have her number? Maybe she can refer you to someone she really trust since she knows a lot about you. Did you by chance take any notes or journal? That would be a good way to personally track your progress and look back on your "triggers." I hope you find a good fit for you and I hope that your bf will be patient as well. PLEASE if at all possible, talk it out as much as possible. When I believed that someone was going to leave me, I couldn't stop focusing on that "lie" so I left instead. Talk about the relationship, your feelings and your fears and see if any of it is valid and if you're both on the same page. Talking is so very helpful with those that we love but oftentimes so very hard to do because of past issues and insecurities that were never dealt with. Praying you'll explore every option to get to that place of healing and peace.