Lost In A Crowd

[JusWannaBHappy]

Hello. Im new here and I need support from others with similar circumstances. I know Im not alone but it feels like it. I give so much to so many yet when Im in need everyone turns ghost. I just want someone to hear me. Not try and fix me just hear me. I've been depressed from a young child and after 51 years you would think at least 1 person in my life would acknowledge it and not say Im just a drama queen. I don't sleep, rarely go out because when I do its like Im not there or a fixture in the building. Im exhausted and have no more fight.

[Agora1]

We hear you "JusWannaBHappy" loud and clear. It's sad that it takes a support group for people to be understood and not judged. I hate when names get tagged onto people for something they had no control over in their lives. Depression being one of them.

Welcome to this caring safe site to come to whenever you need to be heard and not feel so alone. We're here for each other xx

[David0987]

Welcome to the group (I'm pretty new too) and am turning 50 and feel like I've dealt with depression most of my adult life. I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with isolation, sleep and exhaustion. The physical symptoms are real and not like they dramatize in TV commercials. Don't worry about any quick fix advice from me. I don't feel competent on that front but am always willing to listen. Take care

[JusWannaBHappy in reply to David0987]

Thanks David. I look forward to communicating and healing here

[cruin]

I'm new here too. I know how you feel..I have been dealing with constant anxiety and depression for years. I hate how I feel, the loniless is unbearable at times. I hate my life most of the time. I often wonder what my purpose is in life. With that said I try very hard not to act on my emotions . I'm thankful I have a job even tho I hate it right now. If I didn't I probably would be in bed most of the day. Grateful I have two beautiful children..They are the reason I keep on going.

[Beauty987]

Welcome to the group. So sorry you're having a hard time. I have experienced the same and have realized that no one understands unless they have gone through it themselves. That used to really bother me but then I realized that I can't empathize with someone who has had cancer, because I never have. I can't empathize with someone who is a widow, because I'm not. I can't empathize with someone who has lost her Mom or Dad because mine are still living.

That's why support groups are so important. We can help, encourage and support those with anxiety, depression, panic attacks, etc. because we have experienced them.

I think the best thing I heard recently was "Life wouldn't be so hard if we didn't expect it to be so easy." I have always been a very analytical and observant person. I look around at others and compare myself to them. I convince myself that everyone else is happy and I'm not. But I am learning that everyone is fighting some kind of battle. Most people just keep it hidden.

I don't know if you like to read but the book Lies Women Believe by Nancy DeMoss Wolgemuth was very helpful for me. I know that I will probably struggle with anxiety and depression the rest of my life. But I have gotten a lot of help by reading about anxiety and depression (knowledge is power). Change Your Brain, Change Your Life by Daniel Amen is very good also.

[Purplebiker]

I get ya! I'll be here online to help you as much as I can! I have felt like a fixture in the room. I usually go off in a corner by myself. That's how I deal with my anxiety. Maybe not the healthiest thing to do but it works for me as a coping strategy. You do your best and then let it go. That's what my mom tells me. She would know. She was married to my abusive father 47 years before he died. I can't imagine the anxiety she had and still does! One day at a time. Sometimes one moment at a time! Stay on this group. I look forward to seeing the conversation every day!

[aprlcap]

I’m new here too. And everyone is so supportive. Here you can tell your day, what you feel and they will just listen (or read?) and make no judgement. I wish you well. *warm hugs*

[Choccymilk0807]

I understand exactly how you feel, this is my life right now and no I can’t remember when it started. I’ve had the same thing, been called a drama queen, been called lazy, over sensitive, coarse, a bitch etc for simply dealing with my depression. I try to support others too and see if maybe they will give the same support back but it feels like everyone is off in their own world. I just remind myself sometimes that we are all selfish beings and that no one in your life deliberately wants you to be feeling this pain and feeling it alone. People are afraid of what they don’t understand. And I’ve felt the same with how you say you sometimes feel just like a fixture or building. Yep sometimes I’ve been talking to someone and they can’t even muster the effort to look into my eyes. Anyways, just try to remember that a lot of people are ignorant of your pain, they don’t understand that depression is not sadness. There usually isn’t a reason and so most people don’t know how to react to people that are suffering with it. You can always message me if you need to let anything out. Sending you love and prayers

[SuZQ154]

We hear you! Please keep posting! Being honest and being heard are both important parts of getting out of darkness. We are here for you. Tell us more!

[Hidden]

I’m new here to. I’m sorry to hear things are going badly and hope you can find a reason to fight at least a little longer in the hopes things get better. There are people out there that understand, they’re just annoyingly hard to find in public