I don't feel anything anymore. I just sort of...float. I'll forget what I was doing seconds ago and just move on and not care. I don't get out of the house. I don't feel anything. During the past few months I've felt really, really sad. I've had to force myself to interact with people and move from my bed. I used to write poems to help release some of my feelings (I never let anyone read them of course) but now I literally don't have any. Feelings, I mean. I'm either emotionless or overcome with anxiety.
I got really freaked out when I read 13 Reasons Why (you're going to laugh at me) and I found out Hannah wrote poems and stopped too, and I wondered if I stopped for the same reason. Also, I know it was probably the worst idea in the world to read a book about someone who commits suicide while I'm like this. And it did make me feel a little worse. But I just felt compelled to read it. I'm incredibly stupid sometimes.
I'm sort of just ranting right now, I guess. It's really late so I doubt anyone will reply to this. But I know something is wrong with me and I don't know what to do about it. Also, before anyone panics, I'm definitely not going to kill myself. I wrote a promise to myself that I never would and I never will. So.
Any tips?