Hi and help

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Hi everyone.

Where to start.... I've been battling moderate to severe depression and anxiety for couple years, at least that's how long I've admitted to myself I've had it.

My thoughts generally are critical of myself, moving goalposts and feeling like I've let people and myself down.

Been under intense CBT based counseling for around 6 months and it is helping.

What I'm struggling with right now is getting back to the office. Normally I do into office 2 or 3 days a week. About 2 months ago I had a bulged disk in my spine which took 6 week of rest to recover

Last week I decided to go finally back to the office and on the Sunday afternoon before I got a real bad migraine centred in the back of my head... So I ended up taking Monday off and staying home.

Yesterday I planned to go into office today but again almost identically got same symptoms.

I don't consciously fear the office or anything but clearly this is how anxiety is manifesting.

I am making this connection because when I was on holiday earlier in the year one day we planned to visit some family and because I was socially anxious I ended up with the same kinda headache

Going to gp tomorrow to discuss the propanolol they suggested I try for this, suffice to say it's made absolutely no difference to me.

I'm also on anti depressants (mirtazapine) too for about 6 months. Previously tried ssri but really didn't get on with them due to bad side effects

Anyone have any suggestions or things to try to try and get back to being more me again?

Thanks

J

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Hey anxiety can manifest in all types of physical ways it’s a monster! I’m slowly starting to feel better I had a real break down about a month ago and I’m really trying some holistic methods rather than pills , I was taking diazepam for a bit but they are not a long term solution. So over the past week I’ve set myself some goals 1. I write in a diary everyday just anything that pops into my mind any anxious or negative thoughts , that way I feel like I leave them in the diary when I close it. I also try to write the things I’m grateful for. 2. I do yoga with Adrienne on YouTube , ive never previously stuck with anything like this but for the past 2 weeks I’ve forced myself because feel I have nothing to loose and you know what I can really feel a change in my body aches pains e.t.c and anxious thoughts. 3. I listen to calming music or some sort of meditation on YouTube and really relax take time to love yourself and care about yourself. And finally sleep is so important and can be hard when your not feeling yourself . Ovaltine about an hour before bed is really helping me I’ve never tried any of these things before but making them part of my daily “must do” routine is really helping!! Try it what have you got to loose ? And also propranolol are a load of poo in my opinion I get more calmness out of herbal medicine and if it’s not helping you don’t bother taking it. Most importantly just roll with whatever your feeling because it will pass nothing ever lasts forever 😊take care

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I do a lot of the things you do including the yoga with Adriene. I love her videos and her method of doing yoga. She makes it less intimidating for some reason.

I should try drinking Ovaltine before bed. I love chocolate milk. 😆

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Defo agree with you Adrienne is so soft with it . And yes Defo try the chocolate ovaltine so soothing makes me sleep like a baby , never thought something as simple as a drink would haha 😂 plus full of vitamins including b12 which is good for mental health so might have something to do with it 😁

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Awesome. I didn't know that. I usually drink tea or Naturally Calm drink but this sound tastier!

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Hello! How about doing something you love? What are your hobbies? What kind of music do you like? These are some of the things that can make you happy, help you relax, and make yourself feel more "you" again.