Struggling

[opalgrl2308]

Just having a bad day today.... been feeling anxious for the last two days; last night it almost got worse, but I managed to stop before it got bad. (a panic attack) I'm tired of feeling the way I do, and struggling with really nasty thoughts that I just want them to go away. Just tired, and my stomach is constantly going..... ugh.

[littleturtle]

I feel like I don’t control my own thoughts too. My mind is always fighting itself

[deborah27]

write your thoughts down, even the horrible ones. look at them as if you were going to advise a friend and write your own advice... thoughts are usually automatic and so many are not rational, especially when we are in a negative frame of mind. get them out and onto paper, have a look at exactly what they are saying. i hope you can keep sharing and chatting here, any of the coping strategies that have worked for you in the past would be great to hear.

[opalgrl2308 in reply to deborah27]

Thank you; I might try that, but I don't know if I could bring myself to actually write down that some of those thoughts are there, as my mind hasn't gone there before now. That alone scares me. I have found some meditation videos on Youtube - one channel I subscribed to was called Meditation Vacation. I also listen to ASMR videos.

[deborah27 in reply to opalgrl2308]

I understand how scary trying new things can be. You sound as if you are really trying to find ways to cope, I really hope that you do and keep chatting here too.

[opalgrl2308 in reply to deborah27]

Thank you... It's just the last couple months that have been really hard. I used to be in a really good place, almost to the point that I wanted to talk to my doctor about going off the meds. Then, something would always happen, and I decided against it. I've accepted the fact that I need it; it's just really hard right now, but I don't want to drug myself up to the point I'm completely out of it. On the other hand, a sleeping pill (for example) would be great right now. Just hard to decide what is best, and also do not want a habit forming med.

[deborah27 in reply to opalgrl2308]

like your logic, really clear about what you know to be healthy for you. i am glad you are chatting here, it really is a safe place to fall when you need a soft landing site!

[KristinK67]

I don't have much advice at that moment - but just wanted send a virtual hug and let you know you're not alone. Hang in there!

[opalgrl2308 in reply to KristinK67]

Thank you very much