Recently, I've been feeling a bit disappointed in myself and in other people who I thought would support me through my troubles... It takes me into a state of shutting down and ignoring any sort of pep talks because I feel hurt at those I expected to be there. My anxiety kicks in and then my panic attacks occur, and all I can do is just cry, so I ask myself "what's wrong with me?", but I can't seem to answer that question confidently. It's never easy having breakdowns and knowing nobody can help because my parents want to tell me that nothing is wrong and it's all in my head when it is an actual feeling that causes this huge amount of mental and physical pain. It's been about 2 months since I stopped cutting myself but I don't know if I can find the urge that's been gnawing in my chest.... It just sucks and I try to move forward but I take one step forward and fifty steps backwards..
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It's hard, but you will be OK.
Can you find a distraction that you can go to when it all kicks in?
When my panic attacks kick in, I usually blank out and just stay put until I come back to reality. Then I sit in the dining room alone and read, avoiding conversation with people. I don't know if it's good or bad, but I barely speak after a panic attack.
I'd get in the company of people, try to not let it happen at all instead of riding it out. Train yourself to move the anxiety to one side, making a conversation with people when it kicks in might help you out. Or find something new to do so that it challenges you, makes you think.
The cutting was your way of relieving the anxiety and now you aren’t doing that, which is great!! So you need a new outlet for stress. Lots of people find exercise, meditation, a hobby helpful for relaxation and relief. Talking to a friend or just coming on here when you feel the urge, reach out to us and let the urge pass. There is also a texting helpline 741-741
Hi BG298!
I understand your feelings of disappointment with those close to you for not being there for you. But, try to think about it like this...they honestly don’t know what to say or do because they don’t understand the nature of your illness. What works for them will probably not work for you. There’s nothing wrong with you! Don’t take it personally! It’s just a matter of ignorance. I rely on myself and my higher power only to see me through. As much as my family loves me, they’re just unable to help me because they don’t understand through no fault of their own. Rely on other people with mental health issues who get it and mostly yourself. You can do it! Believe in yourself! I’m wishing you peace!
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